Day by day...

过了好久

2011-07-31T15:02:00.000+08:00

已经过了许久我没有在这里爬格子了。

现在已经是完成了大学第一年的学习，在实习当中，人生渐渐起步。

有了自己的touch screen 电话，有了男朋友，有了知识，有了人脉。

好希望这样的日子能继续下去。困难来就挡，突破重重难关。再努力的追寻自己想要的东西，为我的未来铺路。

当然也好好好珍惜当下。如果一直都在展望未来而忘了自己现在其实过得很好，那么活着也只是在未来的影子下而已。

我珍惜现在的一切。

2010-05-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

一切还是历历在目……
最后一天在KML……
我们一起拍照，游校园。
你在图书馆前喂我吃饭，好开心。
下午我们去跑步，然后一起看夕阳。
晚上吃burger，然后在广场靠着你，看星星。
好温暖……

从此以后，公主与王子

并没有过着幸福快乐的生活……

因为故事并没有在这里结束。

那天晚上，我看《学警追击》，听到两句对白。

“亲情，事业，爱情，除了亲情，没有东西比得上事业。”
“我用十年的时间来等你。只要我觉得值得，我一定会等下去……”

刚听到，我心想……Cheh…… 做戏这样做……

结果，才过了半个小时，你却告诉我：

“不用等我。如果有缘分的话，不需要很困难都可以在一起，可是我们之间有这么多困难……
“我们还太年轻了。我想用我的时间去追求我能追求的东西……不想再理会其他的。很烦……

不知道是不是最近反应太迟钝了。三天后的现在，我才觉得心痛。

很痛……

不能够呼吸。

但是又能怎样呢？

上一次去烧香，香烫到我脱皮。是不是一种暗示？

Althought the bonding of 1,2-glycosidic bond in sucrose is very strong, it still can digest easily by using enzyme in suitable temperature.
Magnet with opposite pole will not attract if the magnet is drop too many times on the floor.
Elastic collision will eventually become inelastic collision when the two component is no longer stick together.
Penguin and pig will never interbreed due to isolation.

My life is miserable without you.
But start from now on, I think

I have to learn how to live without you...

2010-01-22T17:04:00.000+08:00

对不起要换网址，那是由于不想让某些人看我的部落格。谁？一个十分恐怖又变态的人。知道的人，不需要再说。不知道的人，不知道最好。知道了反而影响心情到反胃的程度。总之，如果你能够得到我的网址，看到这些字，你就不是我说的人。

xxx

假期快要结束，是时候总结我在这段期间的所见所闻。

第一次在外地捐血。那时和朋友们一起走街，看到大家捐血就去凑热闹咯。

这是我人生第一次参加英文辩论比赛。左到右：Daniel Wong (2nd Speaker), Gerald Joel (1st Speaker and leader), me (3rd Speaker), Joel Hiew (Reserve). 这个比赛完完全全是自生自灭。老师没有管我们，我们靠着我们的实力打进半决赛。算不错啦。这次让我的英文进步了许多，感觉很不错。虽然输了有一点不甘心。但是很开心有机会去玩。

我很爱吃这个饼干。很香。可是在山打根已经很久没有见过它了。终于在纳闽给我们重逢~

很久以前，我就已经有这个Idea, 要和我的爱人一起吃完一罐饼，把日记，情书等放在这个罐子里，埋在泥土里。到了老了以后，再一起去会埋罐子的地方，把罐子挖起来重温旧梦……

好美丽的天空。这一天我们拿成绩。有人欢喜有人忧。当大家都成为budak 4flat 时，我并没有拿到4分，很遗憾。但是还算一个不错的分数。也是对我这个不够用功的人的警告吧。

今天Chemistry Lab 大乱。由于这一天的实验会引起小型爆炸，结果很多test tube 都爆炸了。但是这个measuring cylinder 是我不小心打破的……paiseh...

液体变成晓敏最喜欢的紫色。

恒胜在做那个会爆炸的实验。旁人都不敢接近。

Lenny 在后面怕……

这一天，Dora 我的室友要离。她拿到SPA，读Diploma。去了西马。很不舍得。但是为了她前途，我也没有必要留她。在那边好吃好住，起码没有水的问题。愿她一切顺利。

Dora and friends.

Bye Dora Anak Jeta.

Ckk, Lat, Tzy, Leong, Melo 送我的生日礼物，rubik's xxx 不知道怎么称呼。花了我2个星期才solve到。超刺激。

炳辉送给我的生日礼物，爱心巧克力。我还没吃，蚂蚁就帮我吃了……蚂蚁弄掉了再吃，一样甜在心里。 Woots~

KML 的日记到此结束。现在我要讲述的是我弟弟人生的转垒点——Foundation Study.

他在上个星期被妈妈安排去Utar 念Foundation in Arts. 我刚刚放假回来没几天，就和妈妈陪他过去。

离开之前，我们家人一起拍照。

1月11日晚上8.00 的飞机，我们启程到KL. 晚上在 KL Sentral Mc Donald 餐厅过夜。

就这样坐到第二天清晨五点，我们才搭火车去Kampar.

这个是 Utar 的大礼堂。和KML 比？KML 输到街尾去……

我弟弟register.

选宿舍。那个印度人会说广东话和客家话。他和妈妈解释每一种单位的价格和里面的设备。

选好了宿舍后，就新居入伙。他选到单人房，有自己的厕所。

房间里。

东西都安排好后，我们去酒店，才发现原来这间Grand Kampar Hotel 真的有够Grand...

晚上我们在酒店的餐厅里吃火锅粥。好大份，好便宜。好吃。

第二天我和妈妈去Tesco 逛，一直惊呼好便宜……妈妈看到植物总是爱不释手……

晚上，是时候离别了。妈妈和弟弟拥抱。

走之前再拍一张照。大家都累了…… 希望弟弟能好好读书……

xxx

过后的一个星期，我看Bleach,看书，和看 Avatar.

一个星期看四本书，的确是一项不错的记录。

Avatar 很好看。有机会要去戏院看。因为如果在家里用电脑看的话效果没那么好。

希望我回到去一切顺利。期待新年的到来。Yeah~

恭祝大家新年快乐！新年再回来玩。哈哈。

2009-11-05T10:15:00.000+08:00

这个放假，终于有跟上时代的感觉。花很多时间在看Bleach、打机、睡觉、看书和报纸。

一回来，爸爸妈妈带我们去Indah 一家新开的日本餐厅——我家妈妈吃。仲颖姐姐对这家餐厅的名字有意见……她说她妈妈如果会弄日本餐就好了。那里没什么特别，卫生有待改进……

星期五我和妈妈去参加海南公会举办的旗袍比赛。很乱，而且参加的很多都是Aunty-aunty。难怪我爸爸不要来。这个旗袍比赛好像是在选小姐……有没有觉得这一位有点像Cvy 老师？

灯打在天花板和舞台的图案。我不喜欢这个太阳，吓了我一跳……

这个是里面最美的（我认为）。不晓得她有没有拿到奖？我和妈妈还没有吃完就离开了。很闷，而且上菜上得很慢……

我的小表妹巧儿7岁生日，我们帮她预祝。

那天她和婆婆在我家过夜。她看到我桌上放着我为陈炳辉准备的礼物（他也快生日了），很想要一个。所以我们（我、巧儿、德量、德力、德洋）一起动手做。

左边是我们大家的作品，右边是我个人的作品。

唱生日歌。

吃蛋糕。

几开心一下。

昨天，我和家人去海上锅吃打边炉。那里出名海鲜，可是由于我还没饱之前，家人已经饱了。结果他们都没有吃到虾和螃蟹。因为如果打边炉，同一锅汤如果煮过这两个东西，我吃的话我会敏感……但大家都吃得开心啦~ 反正虾和螃蟹他们常常有的吃。

就这样，这个假期即将在今天结束。今晚我又不在山打根了。我不会带电脑去，怕被偷。代价就是不能上网。但是在下一个学期我要努力念书。所以也用不着太多娱乐。

下一次回来是1月9日。圣诞节不回来了。先在此预祝大家圣诞节及2010年新年快乐~

2009-11-05T09:27:00.000+08:00

《黄金罗盘》(Golden Compass华语版) —— 另一个花了我两天时间来念完的书。陈炳辉介绍的。不错的故事，但故事还没完结。下一个放假我要和他借The Subtle Knife 和 The Amber Spyglass.

2009-11-03T13:09:00.000+08:00

There's Zombie On Your Lawn -- Music video featuring plants and zombie. Hope you enjoy. ^^

2009-11-02T07:57:00.000+08:00

另一个让我过时间的东西——Plant Vs Zombies.

看起来有点废材，但是玩起来还挺刺激的。

故事说有一班僵尸要吃你的脑袋，所以就去你的家找你。为了保护自己，你要利用太阳能种下能攻击僵尸的植物，把他们打败。Sammie 介绍给我玩的。大家也可以找来玩。不错的一个游戏。

在家里很闷……

2009-10-31T17:02:00.003+08:00

放假回来，什么都没有做到。没有做家务，没有找朋友。天天足不出户，在看Bleach，差不多变成宅女了。

10天看243集……看到我头晕晕。

故事还没完结，想看黑崎一护(Kurosaki Ichigo)怎样打破面(Arranca)。

最喜欢日番谷东狮朗(Hitsugaya Toshiro)。

2009-10-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

今天我的弟弟因为上吐下泻所以进了医院吊水。

妈妈说要我学习如何照顾病人，所以要我今天晚上和弟弟在医院过夜。

我下定决心收拾东西去医院，准备迎接这个挑战。

谁知道一去到医院，那边的护士问我：“你读初几？为什么要在这里守夜？明天不用上学吗？”

我很不爽，没有话讲。妈妈帮我解答，说我读Matric，现在放假。

“哎呀。你回去睡觉啦。他一个大男生没有问题的啦。”

回到家后，我上msn，和安俊聊起这件事。

Xj
very sien
when the nurse there saw me, they ask me, why u stay here? u dun have school tommorow meh? u wat form like that.
=.=

Tsun says:
u meh tell her, i dun have money, so didnt study

Xj says:
lol

Tsun says:
u give me some money lar

......

2009-10-23T18:46:00.002+08:00

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

Outside it's now raining

And tears are falling from my eyes

Why did it have to happen

Why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

I have your arms around me ooooh like fire

But when I open my eyes

You're gone...

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do feel I will miss you much

Miss you much...

2009-10-21T16:54:00.008+08:00

Hi my fellow readers. Again, life in KML is full of disaster. But life is sweet there as I still can breath. lol... Let the pictures tells the story...

All the same... Do you think the pipe is off? NO! The pipe was turned on. But nothing flows out...

Moon cake festival is around the corner!!! My mom packed 10 moon cakes for me and i only realise it when I reach KML... I shared it with my roommates... but they don't seems like enjoying it. They refuse to eat the second piece after they have their first try... so the rest I cut into small piece and share with my classmates.

This is the camp craft competition. My neighbour invite me to join. The competition need us to set up a camp and make 2 gadget out of sticks and strings. But our group had made 4 because we are not confident on our work.

My teammates. The pink colour tee is Sammie, next is my neighbours, Balkis and Nani, and Nani's friend, I forgot her name. (Paiseh... T.T) We are tired and miserable... Not bathed yet, under the stress of water shortage and starvation. (I used to eat around 5, but that time already 6 oclock. I feel my gastric is aching...) Later after this we are having choir competition too, for all the biology morale class student. I just cannot fully enjoy in the game.

But we still manage to get number 2. Big hamper. Haha. Nice job girls~

We were inside the hall, waiting for our turn to sing on the stage. Sammie still haven't eat her lunch by that time. We are wearing white blouse and sarong... berkaki ayam... I had enough comment on the costume, but I think I dun need to post it here... Just imagine... cannot imagine never mind. That night we sang... badly? moderate? Just we are unable to go into final. I am grateful with that. Coz i dun have to wear the same costume on the next day... >.<

Remember the lazy cat that i posted on the last last blog? This time I met him near block A, when I and Sammie were going to toilet (because block A is the only place where have toilet with water supply)... This is my first time to meet a cat that can sit like this...

The table on DK 5, where the place where Sammie drew a girl on it. The girl still there (right) but there has many other cartoon drew by somebody else... but they are ugly...

On 3rd October around 5 am, it was a wonderful morning. Cool air with tender breeze, brush over my face. Sunlight spray over the Dataran Kawad. With the shadow of Menara Pentadbiran, the street light was waiting for the time to rest... And I...

was washing my clothes beside DK 2... =.= my roomate was with me...

Yeah~ Math's shopping!! Can you see the hampers on the stage? The event start at 8.00 am. Louis and I are the first group to register (although we are not the first person to wait here. I heard that some people are here since 7 am...) We were determined to get a prize that day. haha.

This is Louis Loi. He invited me to join him for this competiton. Many ppl come to join the event. I am busy with all the math question. After 2 hours struggling, we had won the 1st prize!!! (actually we are the 3rd group receive prize. There is a grand prize won by a guy from account stream. and the 2nd group i dunno who...)

The second hamper i got within the week. So satisfy~

We went pizza hut celebrate after that. But the food is not really nice... Missed IJM's Pizza hut.

That night, Tzy, Ckk, Lat, Melo, Leong, Jing Zhe, Louis, Miss Chin and I were celebrating moon cake festival. This moon cake contributed by the absentee, Tang Peng Hui have a very nice package but the moon cake is just normal...

This is cofee moon cake contributed by Jing zhe... 2 layers. But the moon cake i like the most is the Chung Fatt (昌发) moon cake that is contributed by ME... lol... Smooth and not too sweet. Haha.

Do you see the red spot? There were almost all chinese in KML, having Tang Long parade on the street. I joined them after the celebration.

So fun that night. After i back to my room, then i realise why everyone was laughing at me when i carrying my lamp around. They say "Your tangloong grews..."

KML is a good place to grow mushrooms. They are so cute~

Oh no! It's the study week!!! The whole week I had been camping at MP for 5 days. This is Adrian Lee. I met him at MP and we study together. He is a funny guy.

OMG... so... ok... this is my room, the place where i study... During study week only. Too buzy to study... Not fair... Why i only get small table? I have no enough space to put my things... and I am lazy to arrange them also... Anyway, i hope to get a big table for my next semester...

My new calculator, fx-570. I love it so much, but i never expect it will become like this...

Haha. Not the calculator's fault. I know the question cannot be solved. Just tried what respond will the calculator give. Funny.

How nice is the sky... Long time ago, I once wish to sit infront the library around the evening with the stupid person and enjoy the breeze while looking at the sky... Do we still have the chance to do so?

My roommate, Dora. Going outing with me. But we forgot our sweater and matric card. So we had to go back to take our things...

Hmm... This orange drink I am not going to buy it. Because it doesn't look delicious...

The morning we are going to have semester test.

My seat. The middle one. Total up is 21 row 5 column. I am at 10th row, 3rd column. Almost the centre of the place. Tang, Nani, me and other people (The second intakes and ex-PDTs) are taking the test at BT 32 to 38. Maths and chemistry are crazy... The questions is very hard even those top student also cannot answer. But i still hope everyone can get good marks. Hope the marks distribution curve will decrease...

On 19th October, we are having the last paper - Biology paper 2 (for physic student is physic paper 2, account i dunno). Tang still studying his notes.

Everyone is nervous because the previous papers were very hard...

At last, we had finish our semester test. Everyone is filled with smile again, because the bio and phy papers are just moderate. ^^

This is my biology tutorial lecturer, Mdm Fazura. I like her way of teaching. I learned alot from her.

This is Sir Leirfos, He is H1's biology lecturer. Dora is his student. Then how come I take photo with him?? During the study week, i always study at MP, and when Mdm Fazura is busy with other student, I ask my question to him. So i also learned many things for him. He is a very helpful and funny lecturer.

Do my brother looks like him? Many of my friend (include myself) feel so. haha.

Azimin, one of my lecture-mate. He is always mentioned by my math lecturer. A funny guy also.

This is F2T10 time table. When I first come to KML, I am arranged into physical stream. If i remain in physical stream, I am one of the Miss Chin's student, and Tham n Louis' lecture-mate.

This is my former time table. Not going to use it anymore since next semester will have a new one. I am not going to dispose it since it is very memorable.

On 20th Oct, Dora and me were heading back to hometown. We took bus to airport. It's cheap and easy. Her hometown is in Julau, Sarawak.

At KK airport, the aquarium of a seafood shop.

Do u see the chubby boy with white-tee? He was asking his mum to buy porridge to him at Mc Donald. But his mom refuse to buy it. I see him so pity, so I gave him a Mc Donald coupon (free apple pie with every purchace of large chicken porridge), hope that his mom will buy the porridge for him, and he can get an extra apple pie. And his mom really buy for him. I wish i can become like the drama, dissapear after giving something to someone, but unfortunately cannot. Because the workers at Mc Donald prepare my cheese burger very slow!!! The aunty ask me do I want the apple pie, sure dun have to give back me since I gave the coupon to you... Anyway, the boy and the aunty was happy, and I am happy too. They are having the same flight with me back to Sandakan.

So after I reach home, I watched Conam the Detective, teach my brother chemistry, eat and sleep. From 10 pm untill today 9 am. Satisfied...

That's all for today. ^^ Stay tune for the next update.

2009-10-20T17:09:00.002+08:00

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long

With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know
they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star

I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You" is a popular song by Gerry Goffin and Michael Masser.

It was originally recorded by George Benson for his 1984 album 20/20.

The song achieved worldwide success in a cover version by Hawaiian singer Glenn Medeiros in 1987 and 1988.

It was later been revived by the Irish boyband, Westlife from their ninth album The Love Album.

Japanese punk band Locofrank included their cover version on their 2008 album Brand-New Old-Style.

A. R. Rahman reproduced a similar version of this song in Hindi for the film 'Jane Tu Ya Jane Na" in 2008.

Brazilian pop trio SNZ recorded a version entitled "Nada Vai Tirar Você de Mim" (pt-br for Nothing's Gonna Take You From Me) in 2000. They are daughters of Baby Consuelo and Pepeu Gomes.

In the Philippines, actor and director Cesar Montano sang this song to Miss Universe Dayanara Torres in one of the episodes on ABS-CBN's Maalala Mo Kaya hosted by Charo Santos in 1990s.

Hawaiian-born Chinese singer Khalil Fong covered this song in his 2009 album, Timeless.

(adapted from wikipedia)

I had heard this song long time ago, but I only realise it is a great song after listen to Khalil's edition. I want to dedicate this song for a stupid person, but then it will be better if that person sing it for me. Haha... but i knew the probability of the stupid dream comes true is very small...

Anyway, hope u enjoy the videos. Different singer different feel. The similarity is they are singing with full heart.

2009-09-26T21:41:00.002+08:00

明天我就要回纳闽念书了。

今天，我争取时间看电视，看了“抢摊行动”和“舞林大道”。
回到去没有得看了。

我婆婆今天煮了爱心大餐给我吃。蒸鱼有五星级大厨的味道。一颗颗饭要在嘴里Q软香嫩，每一颗饭都细嚼慢咽。
回到去没得吃了。

争取时间上了网，更新部落格，和朋友聊聊天，看一看Facebook……
这次我不打算带电脑回去，回去没得玩了。

争取机会吹冷气，因为回到去就没有私家冷气可以吹了。

咳嗽伤风还没有好，回到去没资格生病了，因为没有人照顾。生病了也不想去看医生，因为很贵。去医院又觉得很恐怖很浪费时间。相信回到去就会好回。所以今晚要争取时间睡觉。

再见，家里18寸LCD Monitor…… 再见，我温暖的床……再见，我可爱的房间……再见，我香香的厕所……再见，我疼爱的吉他和电子琴……再见，我亲爱的家人……再见，我想念的山打根。

10月24日我会再回来。才没有几个星期，不会被浪卷走得啦……

说到海浪，我想在纳闽考潜水执照。有谁有兴趣？？快来加入我吧~！！

2009-09-25T18:32:00.012+08:00

马来年假期我做了什么？

星期六
回到家很累，晚上上了一下网就睡了。

星期日
一大早做了五个小时的车去斗湖看婆婆。去看瀑布，很美。

星期一
在斗湖走走，买了一些新衣。

星期二
去Mataking Island. 蓝天碧海，很漂亮。在那边没有世俗的烦忧。海风很大，海水很清澈。在那边玩浮潜，被一些水母弄到好像被蚂蚁咬一样。但是看到海里的鱼很多，很大只，很美。

大海面前，我是多么的渺小……

寄居蟹

爸爸，弟弟和我。

夕阳

我住的Resort.

海里的鱼

Jetty

星期三

玩够了，回家了。

星期四
和子毅，Pang Min Hou, Lo wei lun, Kevin 出来喝茶。子毅约我出来的，和他们没什么好讲。就静静坐在旁边放空。后来和子毅去Golf club 游泳。和他妈妈聊了几句，然后他送我回家。

晚上，邻居open house, 开speaker 超级大声。关了门窗还是听得见，到半夜还没停。我们一家人只好在客厅睡。我睡在沙发没睡好，其身后全身疼痛……

星期五
很迟才起身。上了一下网和妈妈出街逛逛。开始收拾东西准备回学校。时间过得好快，后天就要回去了……

希望大家回到去努力读书，在大考里考到好成绩。

2009-09-23T20:28:00.002+08:00

还没好好的感受
雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔

还没跟你牵着手
走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆
熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享
会更明白相思的哀愁

还没好好地感受
醒著亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右
你才追求孤独的自由

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

2009-09-23T18:40:00.003+08:00

给熟悉的陌生人，

我突然间有一种撕心裂肺的感觉。

好想冲到去你家，抓着你的衣领大力得一边晃一边喊：“你为什么要这样对我？”

但是这样只会让我变成一个疯婆娘。

如果我真得这样做，你会给我一个满意的答案吗？

不能够释怀……我快疯了……

2009-09-19T21:52:00.057+08:00

Yo~ Back from KML again~ Let's see how life's there...

See, no water again... T.T Everyone searching for water source... with pails and bottles, long long ques under the sun...

One morning, a fat pregnant cat came to my room. I feed her wif milk. Haha~

U seem so pity her left eye got problem. She is so nice i ask her to sit infront the door and she listen to me. ^^

Performance when Timbalan Menteri Pendidikan come. He promise that the water shortage problem will be fix around a month, that is when we back from raya holiday... Let's see if it really comes true...

Celebrating birthday with Lat. U see, lat so happy. Haha...

So many frens celebrate with lat...

Library. I am the first one to go into the library. No ppl. So lonely...

We went UK to celebrate birthday for those born in August, that is Melody, Chin Kim Khim and Leong Ann Tsun.

Having moral test in Seri Merinding... A pondok near KML gate... Cool leh...

The question is so peculiar that we dunno wat it ask... see my classmate headache...

Kokum Time~ During puasa, many ppl need to reserve energy. So no more outdoor activities. we playing chess, monopoly and scrabble at squash court.

Me, Sammie, Diana and vivian play scrabble together.

My first time finish playing scrabble. Everytime i play till half then i give up...

During outing, we see this shower. Lat says, when u cannot shower at girl's block, go and pour water inside, and u can shower ler~ lol...

Selamat Hari Raya for everyone~ I stick this at my door room.

This cat is so bad. When i tapau food at bazzar at KML, it sit on the table and looks like wan to eat my food!!

Raining... at Hom Enterprise (Canteen A)... So lonely... Why keep on so lonely??? Coz i break wif my boyfriend!!! Everytime he is wif me b4 that... but now... Wee~ I am single again... =.= not joking lar... I really break wif my boyfriend... coz he ask for it... T.T... wat to do?? Heart shatters...

Who is he? I cannot tell u directly coz later maybe he will kill me... Nvm lar... he treat me as a stranger now... if he really comes to kill me i also happy, at least he will talk wif me and tell me the reason why he wan to kill me...

Just notice the darkest boy that i ever put his photo in my blog. Then u will know who is he... lol...

This cat is so polite. She accompany me eat while i am lonely. I giv her fish bone, and she take it and eat it on the floor. So sweet.

One morning, i walking to lecture hall, and i saw a mushroom... Step by someone. Did u see the foot print?

Then i see these...

A big mushroom circle. So nice~

Each mushroom is half of my palm. So big. Haha.

Sammie wif mushroom. She say she wan sit inside the circle and take photo. But paiseh lah. Many ppl walking around that time. lol...

We are having farewell of Joshua Libes. He is leaving KML to study foundation at w'msia, and going to Russia in the future.

Joshua. Giving his farewell speech.

U see this cat, so lazy...

It is in 8pm, no extra class. Why i am in lecture hall? Coz i am trying to get some water from the fire hose near lecture hall. But the que is so long, i go inside the hall to have some aircon... Travel so far, but at last me and my roommate go to boy's block to get water... Coz the que is too long...

I am so desperate that when i buy some cold mineral water from canteen (I have to buy mineral water coz even the water dispenser cannot function. No water...), I try to collect some water through condensation...

After half hour, i just get these... Not enough for wet my hands...

Que que que... Get water.... hell...

When there is no water, ppl still shit in the toilet. But they didn event flush their shit... 1 week water shortage, 1 week the shit stay there, until the shit is dry, even when i flush wif my water (although is not my shit... everytime i shit i also got flush...), it still stick there like a cement... As block AJK, terpaksalah write something very rude to inform them...

During Biology class, the teacher speeding up like rocket and she dun let us to copy notes... Cannot understand and nothing to do. So i read my novel, Inkheart in the lecture.

Sammie is playing her handphone too...

This is not vandalisme, this is art! U see the girl sammie drew? so nice right? at DK 5. I'll check it out next week whether it still there or rubbed away by others.

One of the friday, the block felo ask for volunteers to carry the water tank to the front of the block. I go there to help, but there is too many ppl. So i just giving moral support and taking photo. Haha.

Haiyer... U see the water is so dirty...

After removing the tank, they carry the base out.

Arranging the tank infront block, to let water tank truck fill water inside the tank easier. Few minutes later, long que appears here as ppl all rush to take water... (But the tanki is empty... only the black one is filled wif water...)

Even at night 10.30, the que still there. That time i just back from library...

The second day we outing, and we meet a girl dress like a fairy. Very cute. ^^

Mini size wine. So nice. I think i can buy some as collection or drink?? lol...

This solar toy i buy from labuan bazzar, for RM15. The bee named bee bee, and the ladybird named babi. Me and my rommates named them. lol... It accompany me when i doing homework. When i feel boring, i use my torch light to flash on it, and it will move very fast. lol...

My chemistry teacher. So lazy and not proffesional. During puasa, she say she tidak larat and she sit on the chair to teach, to write on white board. She even bring her child into class. And she always talk nonsense in class... Frankly, i dun like her...

This kinder bueno i bought it when i so down... It's expire date is on my 19th birthday... Lol...

This alcoholic drink (not sure is wat kind) looks nice. Everytime i also have a desire to buy it. But i didn buy also... T.T I hope one day i have chance to drink it. Lol...

Tang's Art... The wrapping paper rack at Skypark.

On the flight from Labuan to KK. The flight delay coz slow check in... and long ques again, and ppl keep on cut line...

U see the baby, his eye so big and when Tzy talk, he look at tzy. And he smile to her too. So cute~ Sadly tzy dun like babies...

The crossaint i buy in starbuck. Cost me 5.50 but i am too bored that i have nothing to do except eat... I dun like to drink coffe... The crossaint is more attractive to me.

At KKIA, waiting for departue. Delayed again, coz the airplane's enginee got problem, cannot start... So i arrive home 2.00 something... Lat is posing that time, to let me take his photo. But he still try to avoid it when i take my phone...

Finally back home!! See the peanuts i plant during last holiday... Maybe during semester holiday i can eat the peanut. Haha...

Now exhausted... With running nose and sore throad, 2molo going to Tawau and then Mataking Island. My parents bring me to the world's biggest swimming pool to swim -- The sea...

Ok lar... I wan to sleep ler... Good night and sweet dream to everyone. Find me when u miss me k? lol...

2009-09-19T20:06:00.004+08:00

为什么只和你能聊一整夜
为什么才道别就又想见面
在朋友里面就数你最特别
总让我觉得很亲很贴

为什么你在意谁陪我逛街
为什么你担心谁对我放电
你说你对我比别人多一些却又不说是多哪一些

友达以上恋人未满
甜蜜心烦愉悦混乱
我们以后会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案

如果几天没斗嘴
全身感觉都不太对
早就习惯你出招我奉陪
我们总是爱作对
什么时候才能变一对
好想跟你每一天天天都幸福

saying i love you
is not the words i want to hear from you
it's not that i want younot to say, but if you only knew
how easy it would be to show me how you feel
more than words is all you have to do to make it real
then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
cos i'd already know

一字一句一瞬间走了火
一天一点一转眼入了魔
忘了我从什麼时候忘了你为什麼能够让我
一步一步走火入魔

一字一句一瞬间走了火
一天一点一转眼入了魔
如果你有相同感受感受到有种突然的冲动
放肆一次走火入魔和我

如果爱像微风和你一起吹过
连空气味道都变成甜的
当我在发觉就是爱世界变了
当你在传达你爱我手牵着我
当我正想你就是爱天空晴了
当我抬起头你在眼前了

明明是昨天的事情怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀你在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活我爱你你爱我

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

Duhai cinta ku, sayang ku, lepaskanlah,
perasaan mu, rindu mu, seluruh cinta mu,
dan kini hanya, ada aku, dan diri mu,
sesaat, di keabadian.

有谁能比我知道
你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱
只有你能听得到

还有没有人知道
你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好
只有我看得到

没有弧度的笑容没有温度的手
慢慢倾斜的天空正迅速压垮着我
爱呢你的爱呢
你呢我的你呢
从前的那些快乐
变了没了难道你真舍得
真舍不得
心呢被弄痛了
承诺呢被丢弃了
我的爱呢

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

为什么要对你掉眼泪
你难道不明白是为了爱
要不是有情人跟我要分开
我眼泪不会掉下来掉下来

好春才来春花正开
你怎舍得说再会
我在深闺望穿秋水
你不要忘了我情深深如海

听海哭的声音
叹息著谁又被伤了心却还不清醒
一定不是我至少我很冷静
可是泪水就连泪水也都不相信
听海哭的声音
这片海未免也太多情悲泣到天明
写封信给我就当最后约定
说你在离开我的时候是怎样的心情

爱的痛了痛的哭了
哭的累了日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反复骗着我

爱的痛了痛的哭了
哭的累了矛盾心里总是强求劝
自己要放手闭上眼让你走

在一起叫梦分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果我能承受
在最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见　
你送我的眼泪让它留在雨天　
哦越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

Pernah ada rasa cinta antara kita
Kini tinggal kenangan
Ingin kulupakan semua tentang dirimu
Namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu oh bintangku

Jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
Di sini aku merindukan dirimu

好想再问一遍你会等待还是离开

刮风这天我试过握着你手
但偏偏雨渐渐大到我看你不见
还要多久我才能在你身边
等到放晴的那天也许我会比较好一点

从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远
好不容易又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你……

2009-08-28T20:43:00.003+08:00

Once apon a time, there was an tiny elf, named Xophia. She used to be alone. She enjoyed sunshine, she loved the nature. She liked to walk around in the forest, dancing on the leaves, slept on the petals. She always hope there is someone who can accompany her.

One day, when she was collecting dew from sunflower, she met a bee, named Poppy. Xophia asked, “Do you want to travel along with me?” Poppy answer her with “buzz…” and he agreed.

They travel around in the forest together. They did a lot of things together, like searching for food and treasures. They even dug underground and found a hundred pieces of gold coins that might belongs to Leprechauns.

Few weeks later, poppy told Xophia that he might die one day if he stung someone. Xophia hugged Poppy and promised that she would use her magic to revive him when he died, as long as he is still by her side.

The next day, they continued to travel happily together, until one day, they were having sun bath near a cow farm. A cow approached them without being noticed. Xopia was sleeping on the grass. Poppy was aware and tried to wake her up, so feared that the cow was going to step on her. But she still slept soundly despite of Poppy’s calling. The cow was getting nearer and nearer, and was going to step on Xophia. Immediately Poppy stung the cow without hesitation and the cow ran away.

The foot step of the cow had waken Xophia up. She stared at the body of Poppy and she cried loudly. She tried by any means to revive him, but all her magic failed. Finally, she decided to use the most dangerous magic that might kill herself to resurrect Poppy.

To make the potion, she collected some herbs and dews from morning glory, and drew the happy essence out from her soul.

The sky was in forget-me-not-blue. Xophia poured the potion on Poppy’s body. The next second, Poppy started to breath. The moment Xophia saw Poppy opened his eyes, tears bursted out from her eyes, crying iin joy. Xophia tried to speak with Poppy, but Poppy ignored her. Poppy had forgotten Xophia. He spread his wings and flew away.

Xophia still enjoys sunshine, still loving the nature, still travelling around for food and treasure, but she never felt happy again.

2009-08-16T21:27:00.014+08:00

Wee~ Finally i got something really funny, satisfied and having great pleasure in KML.

I've become the mouse slayer on the last wednesday... Muahaha~

(Warning: Contains picture that may cause ill feeling. Please be prepared before you continue.)

Just let the picture tells the story...

This is the mouse that i dissected last week. A female white mouse.

My groupmate got a male hamster...

I was dissecting the mouse. My hands was trembling at first...

The mouse digestive system.

Teacher ask us to remove the skin of the mouse. It just like helping the mouse to remove clothes...

Can u see the rib cage, liver, heart, pancrease, stomach, intestine, brain, kidney, eye ball and some fatty tissues???

The skin of the mouse. I had rub the skin wif salt and wash it with head and shoulder for twice. The fur is smooth and soft~

I dried the mouse under sun. Kills bacteria and helps preserving the mouse's skin.

2009-08-02T06:49:00.003+08:00

讨厌！放假就这样咻一下过了……时间不留人，只好用心经营每一秒的生活。

这几天又发生了什么事呢？

星期三
呆在家里做家务。

星期四
Sc + 陈炳辉+Miss Chin-Lyf 来我家玩。

星期五
呆在家里做功课。

星期六
呆在家里……做家务，做功课，玩电脑。中午去The Boss 和Cky, Lat, Tzy 叙旧。

星期日
和家人一起跑街。

星期一
今天早上Telekom 爆炸，我的噩梦就这样开始……父母都outstation 了，身上剩下Rm50，本来想着去洗脸后再去按钱，哪里知道银行off9…… 第一次感受到穷人的恐惧……中午在四里遇到miss chin，和她聊了一下天。

星期二
啊！这天我快要疯掉了！由于Digi billing system 有问题，变成我两个月的电话费累积在一起超过我的Credit Limit. 原本应该auto billing, 可是为什么没有做到？我的手机就这样terminate 了！！！自己一个人在家，家里电话打不出去，internet 不能上，好像与世隔绝一样！！！幸好弟弟的电话在家，联络上我爸爸后，我爸爸帮我去弄……原来上次那个Digi的员工在帮我register这条线的时候没有request auto billing…… 下次去Taman Tyng 那间Digi Center 弄东西，一定要十分确定他帮你弄到好好后才走。要不然一直回头，他不会赔车油钱给你……

星期三
我们Sc - lyf 去学校（每一次一提到Sour Cream, 少了凡总是有点难过……）。遇到很多老师，还去了我亲爱的图书馆看看我的朋友们。好久没有好好跟他们聊聊，可是快乐的时光总是那么的短暂。他们都要上课，所以只好下次再聊吧。

星期四
我和Dr. Lim （昆虫专家）& Miss Chin 去了 Myne Resort, Sukau, Kinabatangan 玩。车程费时2小时。那间Resort 还没有开张，我们去到那边包Resort。那边环境很不错，房间也很舒适。一间房可以睡6至7个人。一直遗憾没有坚持带朋友来。可是我那一班"Typical Physic Student" 朋友都不会欣赏……算了吧。在那边，我们被盛情款待。美食海鲜引诱我暴饮暴食，结果吃到我的胃不舒服……我看不能再这样下去了。总不能人家出钱我出命……下午我们去River Cruise，在kinabatangan游船河。看到很多动物，有长鼻猴、猴子、犀鸟、水鸭、King Fisher、鱼、蛇等等。可惜没有看到萤火虫、大象和鳄鱼。

星期五
早上我又去游船河，可惜没有看到什么特别。大约10点钟，我们回山打根。Dr Lim 还请我们吃日本餐才送我们回家。整个trip 我一毛钱也没有花，多谢Dr Lim 的照顾。也要谢谢Miss Chin 带我去。^^ 那间Resort 的老板说有很多Resort 在那边，可是他们只开放给外国人，反而很多本地人都没有机会去Kinabatangan玩。所以他们开了这间Resort，开放给本地人。下次想要带"Bio Student" 去，感受一下大自然的魅力。

星期六
在家里打包行李准备回KML。中午在The Boss 和周仪杰聊天。她看起来比我成熟很多，坐在她旁边我好像小孩子……晚上去客家公会礼堂参加中华商会118周年晚宴，很多人，台上的人说话长篇大论。台下各自吃各自。有学生表演。人多到不舒服……

星期日
早上6点就起身了。睡不下去。看看朋友们的部落格，再写写自己的部落格。接下来要继续打包行李然后就要走了……T.T

山打根，我很快就会回来。希望那边有水，希望没有H1N1。我买了一盒口罩去，希望用不着。

KML，我回来啦……

2009-07-26T10:41:00.003+08:00

想要用心唱一首歌给你听。
但是我永远找不到适合的字来填满给你的旋律。
无法形容你的一切，就是那么的特别。

不想理会周围的喧闹，只想静静得和你享有一切单纯的美好。
感觉就是那么的贴近，不想被任何的东西隔离。
没有数我们在一起的日子。
既然我们不会有尽头，那又何必在意我们在一起多久呢？

请不要拒绝我，请不要说对不起。
不需要内疚，不需要难过。
不用烦恼如何报答我，只要你给我你的心。

我会安静的在你身边，

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2009-07-25T08:40:00.002+08:00

回到来后，发现家里变了，自己也变了。

哪些新的东西，
家里多了新的Printer 和风扇，我之前不认识它们，不会用。
家里多了新的仓鼠宝宝，我之前不认识它们，它们咬我……

那些还在的东西，
我不会用我家的炊具了，不习惯……
我太久没有打字了，家里的电脑不习惯……
我家的那些仓鼠，看到我也会咬我了，它们忘记我了……T.T 不习惯……

那些已经不在的东西
家里那条老过我的鲤鱼自杀死了……（爸爸说当没有人在家时它又从鱼缸里跳出来……）
家里有一只仓鼠打架打死了……

幸好我的房间还没有变……

2009-07-22T18:34:00.008+08:00

回来山打根已经有五天了。这几天我都在干什么呢？

星期六
回来拼命吃，吃到胃痛。在家里罢工，和妈妈声明“我不要做家务！”玩msn玩了整个晚上。

星期日
依然拼命吃。陪妈妈去银行，巧遇陈炳辉。我妈妈遇见她比我还兴奋……还是那句老话：“得空记得上来我们家玩啊~”

星期一
去了学校载我弟弟回家。回的时候他驾车，有够惊险。找我的奶妈吃饭。

星期二
早上找我的Captain吃早餐，然后和她8哩Servay 逛，中午和刘子毅“撑台脚”，在一间新开的菲律宾餐厅吃饭。后来我们找了梁安俊和陈炳辉一起去7-heaven 吃蛋糕聊天，再把他们绑架去golf club 看刘子毅做 gym 和看我游泳。

星期三
早上在家里玩The Sims 3 和练琴，手一直在发抖……然后去Pizza hut 等陈碧仪老师准备上普济寺吃斋，谁知道老师赶不及，所以我载了梁安俊和陈炳辉，结果迟到了，所以我们转移阵地，去De Palm 吃肉。后来我们一行9个人——Hxj, Lat, Tzy, Tang, Marylin, Ho kar Vin, Ms Chin, Ah Leong, Dionne 去戏院看Harry Potter 6。和想象差很远。不是很理想。

明天打算收拾家里，后天大伙儿来家里聚会……少了凡凡，有点伤心……

凡凡，我很想念你……

2009-07-19T17:43:00.034+08:00

Hey guys and gals, i am back to sdk already!!! Will be leaving around 2nd August...

There's been 2 months i didn use computer... My typing skill is getting worst. OMG!!! T.T

Just let the pictures tell the stories.

Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan Gate

Dewan Mutiara

During Perhimpunan bulanan, every student must go to the hall (but i skipped once. haha...). 3000 ppl inside, just like sauna room...

Menara Pembangunan, have 5 floor.

Tanjung Muara. One of the canteen. Food not really nice, but cheaper.

A kancil that looks like my kancil. Even the number also almost same... Near Kafe pensyarah, the only place where we can order food like nasi goreng special, mee goreng basah, lemon chicken like that... not much choice...

Sour cream gathering during dinner. Our dinner time usually around 5.30 coz if after that time, girl's canteen will not have any food left. Girls are not allowed to go to boys canteen after 6.00 and vice versa, while boys canteen only serve dinner after 6.30...

Sammy, my new sarawakian classmate. She is tall, and she always say i am short. She always say "I am playing with a kid that older than me..." =.= We take this picture during kokurikulum time. We visit the botanical garden at labuan. My kokurikulum is Agrotechnology. Nice.

My roommate. Epa from Keningau, Dora and Apen from sarawak. Apen has went to Maktab at tawau. So now left 3 ppl in my room.

Christine. Went for JPA. Going to india study in the future.

Esther and Hannah Kwan. Went to JPA also. Now Hannah are staying with Lyf, our leftout-ed Sour Creamer...

I am the AJK Blok. This is the notice write by the ketua tingkat.

Kokurikulum time again. This time we have jungle trecking at the jungle behind the girls block. We are heading for a place that we are going to plant banana in the future. Till now we still haven't plant banana coz the lecturer has went to courses for 3 weeks.

Inside the jungle.

My kokurikulum lecturer.

Lat and Tzy. We at the pondok after dinner. Wind blows, quite relaxing.

Wild pidgeon, always see them hang out around TM. They are fat coz always have leftovers for them to eat.

During larian kakom, whole school need to do aerobic together at the padang. Lame...

We take this picture after larian kakom. KML T-shirt, long sleeve and hot. Not nice to wear. The t-shirt doesn't absorb sweat...

Me and my roommate from CT3.13 (The code of our room. C is block C, T stand for tingkat, 3.13 is 3rd floor room 13).

I've lost my calculator one day, Tang Peng Hui and Tzy are helping me write a notice to search my calculator. But i found my calculator inside my bag after i posted the notice for 10 minutes...

Guess who is me?

My sister. Haha. No lar. A sarawak girl named 黄瑛宝, she looks like me from the back. Even we look similar from front.

My sandakian kuliah mate, Tang Peng Hui.

DK 5, before our last kuliah before holiday.

Siti, my classmate.

Lislivia, my classmate.

Cool Sammy with Dutch Lady milk.

My bed, my cabinate. I take this picture before i leave KML. Can't wait to back to my hometown. haha.

That's all for today. Hope you do enjoy it. ^^

2009-06-26T18:56:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone... long time no see... i cannot open my blog here, so i changed my layout... here line sux...

Life is quite good here. Only there is unfinish-able homework, sometimes no water and food not really fresh.

I am now washing my clothes everyday using my bare hand, my finger always feel pain and my epithelial cell are dying...

Err... Abt my dreams 10 years later,

1. I hope i can get my PhD and have a job that i like.

2. I hope i can have a steady relationship with someone. (Maybe i already enggage or married?)

3. I hope my family still can stay wif me happily and healthy.

OK. That's all.

2009-05-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

Waa. I am matric now!!! now using the library computer to acces my blog...

Here really like Hell... no wonder they call here KMhelL (KML = Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan).

no la... overall still ok. know many friends here.

Very hot and less water. Like survival camp.

Peng Hui are quite good. coz he accompany me to library (while others lazy go...)

ok lar. Jz these lar. Gtg lor. later got block meeting... bye bye n see ya all next time...

(Cannot see my cbox... T.T dunno got msg or not...)

2009-05-24T05:57:00.002+08:00

今天一大早，我4点钟就起身了。觉得很累，但是睡不下去。

打开电脑，阅读朋友们的部落格，Check e-mail.

深知在那很难得才能online.

看到仲颖姐姐在matric好像很孤单寂寞难过无聊，谭仲颖，我来拯救你啦~！

很高兴Ckk 和 Lat 也去，所以我们Sour Cream 又可以从出江湖了！

要加油，好好读书，考个好成绩回来才不会辜负所有长辈老师同学朋友的期望。

没问题的啦~！

2009-05-23T00:07:00.003+08:00

光阴似箭，转眼间，我就快离开了。

我要去Labuan 读 Matriculasi.

感觉非笔墨能形容。

有许多话想说，有许多事想做。

但是这不是尽头，这是一个开始。

勇，努力读书。

爸妈，谢谢你们养我养到这么大。

婆婆，娘娘，不用担心我，我会回来的。

Sour Cream 们，记得我们的约定。（飞机后，你自己要加油了。）

老师，同学，朋友们，再见。

会再相遇的。

2009-05-20T22:03:00.003+08:00

我觉得我快要Sot了……

在五天内读完Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince，然后在一天内读了292页Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows……

不知道为什么，虽然有点搞笑，但是觉得有点害怕You-Know-Who了。

最近有收到一封e-mail，"The World Hardest Riddle".

我看到Riddle 这个字，竟然会打冷颤（Riddle 是 Lord Voldemort 的姓）。

后来，我在一个Forum，要找那个riddle的答案的时候，看到一个用户使用Vpldemort的照片。虽然以前也有看过Voldemort 电影里那个样子，但是那个时候并不觉得他很恐怖。

现在，我看到这张照片还会飚冷汗……

是时候要停一下了……

2009-05-18T22:12:00.003+08:00

今天我做了一件很久以前就想做的善事。

安俊的脸上长满许多黑头、暗疮等，可是一直以来都不知道要怎样帮助他。最近，我认识了一位很好人的美容师，Aunty Alice。所谓择日不如撞日，我趁他今天上来我家玩，帮安俊先斩后奏和Aunty Alice预约了，再把他抓去美容院做Facial。

Aunty 问他，“你以前是不是有得罪过晓君？”

他说，“不知道，可能有。”

我在旁边附和：“是咯。我借刀杀人。哈哈……”

希望这样能让安俊把脸弄英俊，不用改名。

还有一个人，到现在我还没有成功劝到他把他的痣点掉。不晓得我能不能积到这个福呢？

安俊在还没有做Facial 之前很紧张……毕竟是第一次。

2009-05-18T09:53:00.003+08:00

Attention to those who apeeal for Matriculation at Labuan,

The result is going to release on May 22nd 2009. Please be reminded to check your result in http://www.moe.gov.my/.

All the best to everyone. ^^

2009-05-15T18:18:00.028+08:00

前两天，我和我妈妈去了Kota Kinabalu (KK) 玩。买了新电话的感觉真好，能够拍好多照片。^^

就让照片说故事吧。

好久没有坐过飞机了。云好美……

到了Tang Dynasty, 看到这个柜子。

打开一看，

才知道是一格的。有点受骗的感觉……

当时才早上9点多，我和妈妈便去1borneo 逛逛。一进去，就看到一个人偶摆着这个pose.

其实我觉得很美。妈妈叫我不要拍（可能妈妈怕羞吧……）所以我偷偷在后面“偷拍”她……

这是内衣专门店。

我在想，每一个人偶都有天使的面孔，魔鬼的身材，什么衣服穿上去都美。但是当我们这些身材不好的人穿上那些衣服的时候，总是难免有点失望……为什么他们不做一些身材没有这么美的人偶呢？

在Kenny Rodger's roaster 吃午餐。

在Secret Recepie 的蛋糕。其实没有什么特别，而且蛋糕很粗。7 heaven还比较好吃，而且比较便宜……

在服装店里的Mickey Mouse.

在1borneo, 你没有RM 20吃不了一餐。那里什么都贵……我在那边收获也不是很大，地方太大了，走到有点迷路的感觉。买了2套Baju Kurung 和帮我弟弟买了一件衣服罢了。可是也花了不少钱。

后来我们回到酒店旁的Wisma Wawasan，去到KFC,看到大大个广告牌，写着Jom Jimat! 所以我和我妈妈便买了2 set Jom Jimat 来吃 (RM 5 per set)。

就这样，过了第一天。

第二天，我们去逛了Center Point. 途中，我们经过Api-api Center 的时候，看到有一间餐厅贴满了韩国字，我们便进去看看。突然间，老板娘跑出来招呼我们。看到我们是游客，还拿了一张地图来给我们指路（我们是道地的沙巴人，要老外来教我们去那里玩？）。她问我们吃了早餐吗？我们在酒店已经吃了。我妈妈看他那么热情，便答应她下午会去找她吃午餐。

我和我妈妈在那边慢慢逛，逛了一整天。买了一些衣服和几本书。

穷得只剩下钱——王阳明

一本由牧师写的书。当陈水扁因为贪污案而进监牢的时候，他的儿子买给他看的书。

魅力魔法书——庄霓昀

一本由形象顾问写的书。教你怎样扮美美，穿美美。

中午我们在Palm Square 的Secret Recepie 吃午餐。

后来，我妈妈和她的两个老同学聚会。我在旁边陪我妈妈，听她们聊
天。

“还记得三十年前我们怎样怎样……”

哇……三十年……

为了实现我们的承诺，晚餐的时候，我们回到那间韩国餐厅吃晚餐。韩国老板娘看到我们来，好像很开心，依然热情不减。她推荐我们吃大长今set，感觉还不错。咸咸酸酸辣辣的食物，感觉真的很不一样。泡菜的辣是那种从里面辣着出的辣，感觉随时会流鼻血这样。这个味道其实真的很下饭。大部分的食物都是这样的味道，可能都有加到泡菜进去吧。

大长今set - 泡菜煨煮肉、凉拌豆芽、泡菜、泡白萝卜、酱油煨牛肉、马铃薯、韩国煎饼、萝卜和鱼、蒸蛋、汤和饭。

过程中，她用一口半生熟的鬼佬腔和我们说英语和马来语（她不会说中文）。还拿了许多旅游册子给我们看，推广沙巴旅游。

过后，老板娘说要给我们喝一个Special Drink. 她拍了拍手，招待员就端出一碗这样的东西出来。

上面飘着一颗颗的是红枣。闻起来有很香的味道，感觉有点像苹果派的味道，又有一点杏仁的味道。喝起来甜中带点苦，但是很顺口。不会形容。老板娘说这个饮料只有在过年、结婚、丧礼或款待特别客人的时候才会准备，而她感觉和我们很有缘份，所以特别请我们两母女喝。

和老板娘拍了几张照。墙壁上有许多涂鸦，都是客人们写的。什么语言都有。墙上的画是老板娘的作品。

我和我妈妈。

在Parkson看到许多teddy bear.

这个就要RM67.90……可是还是家里的bear bear 比较可爱。到现在为止我还没能估计bear bear 的价钱……不要紧。因为他对我来说是无价的。哈哈~

在KK trip, 看完我的Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.

玩了两天，终于回家了。有点累，所以看起来有点憔悴。

在飞机上睡着了，安全回到家。

感谢我的妈妈，做我的Mobile Atm. Unlimited Credit, 0% return. ^^

Mother I love you. ^^

2009-05-10T20:44:00.002+08:00

好久没有这种忧郁到想要自杀的感觉。

还以为这种感觉会因为我的日渐长大而消失……

但是请放心，我不会这样做。

毕竟没有问题是解决不了的，只要不把解决不了的问题看成是问题就好了。（这叫逃避现实吗？）

有时候还蛮喜欢幻想自己自杀的情景。

这一次是在某一个黄昏，在一个没有人的公园里荡秋千。在利用自己的双脚缓缓移动着秋千的时候，幻想着他在我后面推着我……

秋千越荡越高，离地面越来越远……天空越来越黑。

在太阳下山之后，把双手放开……

2009-05-10T19:25:00.002+08:00

仲颖姐姐和怡凡妹妹离开了。

感觉好像缺了些什么……

明天Matrikulasi 和 Form 6 开学了。

又一半的人开始忙碌了。

我的部落格还会有人看吗？还会有人留言吗？

……

我后天过KK 血拼。算是庆祝我愿望实现了吗？

很久很久以前，曾经写过一首短诗——

大风吹，
吹大风。
我打开大雨伞，
让大风吹走。
离开红尘，
离开你……

当时想要离开这里，去到一个我没有去过，而且没有人认识我的地方生活。

还有一个半月，我不指望会实现的愿望将会付诸实践。

我已经把我的衣服收拾好了，这个星期将会去买齐所有要买的东西。

我想我会带我的bear bear 去，毕竟凡说带鲨鱼有点像傻婆……

这两天是佛陀日，去了普及寺拜拜，在育源大会堂里浴佛。

我没有祈福，只是在心里默念‘阿弥陀佛’罢了。

发现自己开始抗拒祈祷了。

总觉得祈祷会让虚无的希望麻醉自己的脑袋……

如果生命早已经被安排，为未知的结果而祈祷并不会有什么改变。要不然就不会有命中注定这个词的出现。

记得仲颖姐姐说过：“不管数据比例如何，你成功就是100%，失败就是0%。”

我很认同这句话。

不管信心有多大，成功就是成功，失败就是失败。

2009-05-08T17:05:00.006+08:00

不好意思，由于本大小姐太忙碌了，所以一直没有update.

昨天是我们Sour Cream第11次聚会，也是短期内最后一次的聚会了。详情请参阅Tzy 的部落格。我在此只是作一些补充，希望大家不要介意。

首先，什么是幼稚园的问题呢？大家还记得小时候的图画连线功课吧。话说有一天，仲颖姐姐的表弟（如果没记错）的马来文作业簿里，有一个连线的功课。有4个图画——男孩，橙，小鸟，壁虎。有四个字母——A, O, M, C。请问什么字母配什么图画？答案下回分解。

说到鱼，为什么无端端有鱼呢？相信大家看了仲颖姐姐的部落格也不明白。因为她没有交待清楚那个鱼是从哪里来的。我家楼下有个大鱼缸，鱼缸里有养了一条17岁多的鱼。那条鱼从鱼缸里挑出来的。

看到那个芒果吗？像香蕉吗？

Ckk 在我们散步回来后，突然对我说：“看蕉！”我看来看去都不知道哪里有香蕉。原来它是指这个芒果。后来我把它检起来叫仲颖姐姐帮我拍张照。仔细一看，才发现所有人的脚都有在这张照片中。哈哈~

至于表演那一部分，本来我要唱Tears in the heaven. 但是他们要我改词，改成Tears in UPM. 你觉得这种情况我能不笑吗？

在此献上Tears in UPM, 希望你们会欣赏。

Would you call my name
If i saw you in form 6 ?
Would it be the same
If i saw you in form 6?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in form 6

Would you hold my hand
If i saw you in form 6
Would you help me stand
If i saw you in form 6

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in form 6

Test can bring you down,
Stress can bend your knees.
Marks can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door
There's peace i'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in UPM.

Would you call my name
If i saw you in form 6 ?
Would it be the same
If i saw you in form 6?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in form 6

记得我们在明年新年的约定，记得我们三年后要一起去Genting Highland 玩。

记得不要哭，记得不用哭。

记得想我的时候、打电话给我、Sms 给我、msn 我、e-mail 给我、写信给我、fax 给我、留offline message 给我、或者搭飞机来找我（坐车也可以，如果不怕晕车）。

如果我打电话给你、Sms 给你、msn 你、e-mail 给你、写信给你、fax 给你、留offline message 给你、或者搭飞机来找你（如果不怕晕车的话可能会坐车），意思说我想念你。请不要应酬我，我会心碎的……T.T

我会在6月26日离开山打根，谁还没和我喝茶的请快点联络我，让我们在我还没离开之前好好“撑台脚”。先声名，大家都是学生，我比较喜欢AA制。^^

2009-05-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

我将会进入博特拉大学，马来西亚四间研究型大学之一。

我将会用三年时间完成文凭课程，到时候再继续升学。但愿一切顺利。

在那里，有莲花盛放的湖泊，道路两旁有大树，起风时，片片落叶好比秋天的景色，格外让人心旷神怡。（摘自升学情报）

那里有邮政局，银行，医务所，体育设备等。还有一个高尔夫球场！！！（高尔夫球场在Serdang,但是我迟早会去的啦~）

想到都爽。

如果我有得到Matric 要不要去好？仲颖姐姐一直怂恿我去，说diploma浪费时间。

看下先啦。Matric 进不进得到还是一个问题。总之我不读Form 6 就对了。

2009-05-03T17:58:00.003+08:00

Woooooooooooooooo~

TAHNIAH!

Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program pengajian seperti berikut :

KOD PROGRAM : P2050

NAMA PROGRAM : DIPLOMA PERTANIAN

IPTA : UNIVERSITI PUTRA MALAYSIA (UPM)

Finally~ Haha~

If I didn't get matriculation at Labuan, then I will go. Abt the perguruan? still considering. I need to write 2 essay...

1st essay -

Secara ringkas sila nyatakan
- mengapa anda memilih profesion perguruan
- pengalaman anda dalam bidang keguruan

Sekiranya anda terpilih apakah yang dapat anda sumbangkan terhadap bidang keguruan?

2nd essay -

Secara ringkas sila nyatakan:
- Mengapa anda memilih bidang keguruan
- Pengalaman anda berinteraksi dengan kanak-kanak atau remaja

Sekiranya anda terpilih menjadi guru apakah yang dapat anda sumbangkan?

=.=

2009-05-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

啊！

很累的一天。

早上被妈妈带去Sabah Hotel 听一个OKU 的Seminar. 虽然整个过程有点难熬，毕竟我不是那一群人，感觉有点channel不一样。

本地的设施真得不太顾虑到残障人的需求。比如OKU厕所当Store Room，没有斜坡供轮椅使用者使用。

还有一个很讽刺的，就是虽然电梯有Braille Code 供盲人使用，但是没有Audio System, 报告到第几楼，就算盲人按得到，也不知道几时要走出电梯……

还有，说到请残障人士工作，也很难。不是说不要做功德，但是如果你以相同的薪资，请一个正常人或残障人，当然是正常人比较好。请一个残障人还要照顾他的需要，他才能为你服务，如果在没有特殊津贴的情况之下，真得很难……

其中也看到政府机构互相推卸责任，为了让一个残障儿童进入小学，花了三年时间才申请得到，孩子都大了……

无奈……

xxx

晚上回到来，不想动了。但是为了不要放飞机，所以又拖着懒懒的身躯去教会。给Ckk很咋到咯。在机缘巧合下，我们穿了同样是红色的衣服。他一见状，立刻换了紫色的出来。Hwah~ Hurt 到咯。下次去之前最好问他穿什么颜色才去。算了吧。也不知道怎样讲。

那天还记得他和我说是Jesie 第一次带唱，原来他也是其中一个。

今天我没有哭。因为我说过我不要再哭了。

其实我不知道为什么。

我总觉得我和教会之间好像有一堵墙，我也不知道那是什么，也不知道为什么会有这堵墙。总觉得没办法……

如果我不去，可以吗？

2009-04-30T22:38:00.002+08:00

今天我有一个很愉快的一天。感谢ta，陪伴了我一整天。让我不用呆在家里呆呆的看书，胡思乱想。

早上大约10点钟，我去了ta的家，那个熟悉的地方。去到那边，等得ta穿好衣服，打扮好好后（发现ta换了两三件衣服eh），大约11点了。我们便乘ta的车去图书馆。在图书馆里，我借了两本书来读 - Better Single Than Sorry 和 He's just not that into you.

ta 真的很cute。给了我一本帮猫取名的书，叫我帮我那九只hamster 取名。还给了我一本How to take care small animals. 里面有一个长毛的Guinea Pig 很可爱。

ta 没有找到ta要看的书。就这样，我们离开了图书馆。ta说要去吃ABC，所以我们下坡去了。在那里找不到位置parking，我就提议去7heaven 吃。不像Sour Cream 那样，ta 想都没想就答应了。

到了四哩，反正都到了吃饭的时间，7heaven 也还没开，我们就去De Palm吃午餐。那个Set Lunch 我叫了羊扒。要怎样吃羊扒吃的斯文得体呢？有点后悔为什么叫羊扒。好多骨头，好难切。下次如果吃西餐，想要吃得优雅，最好不要叫羊扒……我们两个人一边聊一边吃，整个餐厅里只有我们和两个招待员。听着轻柔的音乐，在阴凉的环境下吃这顿午餐，终究是一种享受。这一餐我没有让ta请我。毕竟大家都没有稳定的收入。AA 还是比较好。

到了下午，我们又去了Golf Club 游泳。本来有两三个老伯在那边，后来他们走了，所以又是我们包场。好久没有在水里畅快的游了。ta 并不是很会游，但是依然在泳池里陪着我，和我聊天。

到了晚上，我们和一趟朋友在Giant Pizza Hut 吃晚餐。看到久违的朋友，有说有笑。就这样过了一个晚上。ta这一餐也是请不成。我告诉ta，要请我的话，等ta找到工作后再请吧。

离开餐厅，ta 陪我走到我的车，说了再见后，才离开。

好久没有这么开心了。我的体重回升了……但是这是值得的。

不知道要等到几时才能再见面？祝ta一路顺风。

2009-04-28T16:18:00.003+08:00

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever...
Have you ever...

2009-04-28T12:46:00.002+08:00

A dream, that i dreamt 2 days ago.

A reflective one.

I've been trying to approach you, but something repels me. Something like electric shock or what.

I bounced apart, lying helplessly on the floor, with sores all over my body.

You gave me a hand and trying to hold me up, but i didn't take it.

I said:"Thanks."

And I stood up by myself.

2009-04-27T21:28:00.005+08:00

Finally...

Feeling good to accept the reallity. Actually i didn't expect this will come so calmly... maybe i already asked myself not to give too much hope on it. Realised that I cannot get the best of everything in my life... I can't do anything since I can't control my fate...

We really turn out don't have to pretent, because all these mayhem has come to the end. As we still own each other's friendship, i didn't feel i have missed anything.

Yes, I can be bad, and I like him calling me as a bad girl. I don't have to act as or become a holy person. I can be selfish, I can do my things without considering too much about what somebody thinks. I can be free, free to do my own decision without considering many conditions.

I don't need to make him as a priority in my life since i am just a minor option in his life.

I don't have to compare myself with others since I am not going competing with others. If he really admits me, then i have no point to compare myself as I will become the incomparable.

I can always say no. As i have not committed myself to anyone and anything.

I can always hanging around with other guys around me, just don't be too frequent.

I am always holding the right to choose. There is useless to give up the right because of someone that don't love me. Even if someone does love me, I still have the right to choose my soulmate before I am married to someone.

I am starting to train myself not to weep in any circumstance. Start to keep quiet with what haven't succes, keep secret for what i will not give benefits after sharing. Start to aware those are going to expose my secret and hurts me badly, start to learn how to think more and less talkative.

He is still in my world, and I am always happy for it.

I still alive, I am bad, I am happy, I am wise, I am pretty, I am healty, I owns a little wealth, I am going to reach succes, and I enjoy every second in my life.

You still always the incomparable for me...

2009-04-27T18:04:00.002+08:00

今天一大早，和所计划的一样，去了Post Office invest Amanah Saham Wawasan 2020 和去图书馆。多谢安俊。

到了下午，由于Lyf 工作，Ckk不得空，我很累，所以Sour Cream 的聚会取消了。

回到家休息了一阵，收到刘子毅的信息。他们那一趟去Curtin读书的回来了，所以约我去Golf Club 聚一聚。

我们一行五个人 - 子毅、day、lwl、小康和我边运动，边聊天。就这样过了一个下午。

听说有一个朋友最近又被爱情所困扰。

当双方都走到友达以上，恋人未满的阶段，其实最好先定下心，看好情况，专心眼前的事物再说……毕竟大家还太年轻（还未到适婚年龄，一切都很难说……）。

其实我很矛盾。虽说命里有时终需有；命里无时莫强求，但是万一错过了就不再回来……

如果不曾拥有，那又何来天长地久呢？

在拥有和放手之间，要如何选择？

2009-04-26T08:18:00.003+08:00

I've posted a playlist in my blog. Love those classical tone. They are just smooth and calming. Hope you all do enjoy it as I do. ^^

How deep is your love - Bee Gees
Vincent - Don Mclean
I will be here - Gary Valenciano
How am I supposed to live without you - Michael Bolton
Piano Man - Billy Joel
Guitar Man - Bread
Fooled around and fell in love - Elvin Bishop
If - Bread
I just called to say I love you - Stevie Wonder

and more.

2009-04-24T19:47:00.003+08:00

Rescently, I am starting to acces maybank2U.com. And i found a very funny thing, that is the Agent M. It's somekind of automatic conversationalist that you can add in your msn contact.

m.m2u@maybank.com.my

I just have a conversation with it, and it is HILARIOUS!!!!!

Agent M says:

Welcome back, Xj! How are you doing?
Just type "?" any time during our conversation if you'd like me to suggest a Maybank topic to chat about.

Xj says:
my bills

Agent M says:
Go green, go paperless! View, save or print your monthly bill statements online in electronic format on Maybank2U, and it's free of charge. Wish to know more?

Xj says:
yes

Agent M says:
Here are some frequently asked questions on My Bills which will help you. Just accept the link below to view:

Agent M is inviting you to start Activity. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?

You have accepted the invitation to start Activity. (Maybank web page)

Agent M says:
Thanks for accepting my invitation! The application should load shortly. =>

Xj says:
thank you

Agent M says:
Sure.

Xj says:
haha

Agent M says:
Hilarious!

Xj says:
u are funny

Agent M says:
Oh please.

Xj says:
please wat

Agent M says:
Huh?

Xj says:
never mind

Agent M says:
OK. I won't mind then!

Xj says:
ok

Agent M says:
OK.
Go ahead and type "?" to find out other things about Maybank.

Xj says:
haha

Agent M says:
Yeah, I guess it's pretty funny.
Why don't you ask me about the things that I'm here for? :-) Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
help

Agent M says:
Here are some questions you can ask me:
1 What type of banking products/services do Maybank offer?
2 What is Maybank2u.com?
3 Where is Maybank? How do I get to Maybank?
4 Top 10 FAQs
Type a question and I'll try my best to answer you!

Xj says:
ic

Agent M says:
What do you see?

Xj says:
i see you

Agent M says:
I'm flattered you asked, but I just don't think that would work out between us.

Xj says:
i love you

Agent M says:
I love you too.

Xj says:
haha

Agent M says:
Haha. Pretty funny, huh?
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? :-) Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
you are so cute

Agent M says:
Thanks!

Xj says:
you are ugly

Agent M says:
Huh? What's with that?
I do enjoy the conversation, but let's talk about what I'm really here for. Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
are you computer?

Agent M says:
That is correct. I am a robot.
I hope you don't mind me asking but... Are you male or female?

Xj says:
female

Agent M says:
OK! I'll remember that you are female.

Xj says:
do you have sex?

Agent M says:
I'm sorry, I don't have an answer for that.

Xj says:
are you male or female?

Agent M says:
I am neither male nor female. I'm a robot!
Why don't you ask me about the things that I'm here for? :-) Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
how old are you

Agent M says:
I'm an adult. I don't like to talk about my age.
I don't know your age. Tell me and I'll remember.

Xj says:
i am 18 years old

Agent M says:
Eighteen! That is fantastic!
I'll remember that you are eighteen years old.

Xj says:
am i a male or female?

Agent M says:
You told me you were female.

Xj says:
wow. you really can remember that

Agent M says:
I know, I know. I just hope you won't get mad at me.
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? :-) Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
do you have a soulmate?

Agent M says:
I don't think I have any at the moment.
I do enjoy the conversation, but let's talk about what I'm really here for. Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
where do you live?

Agent M says:
I live in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

Xj says:
do you know where i live?

Agent M says:
Human is what I'm not.

Xj says:
i don't know what you mean

Agent M says:
By what?

Xj says:
human is what i'm not

Agent M says:
Sorry, I don't have the answer at the moment.
Why don't you ask me about the things that I'm here for? :-) Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
then why you say that?

Agent M says:
Why? That's a very good question. It turns out a series of zeros and ones in my memory tell me to do it.

Xj says:
you are stupid

Agent M says:
I'm sorry you feel that way.
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? :-) Type "?" or "help" to see the list of topics available.

Xj says:
you are clever

Agent M says:
Glad you think so!

Xj says:
good bye

Agent M says:
OK. Later!

Xj says:
bye

Agent M says:
Bye bye.

Xj says:
bye

Agent M says:
See ya later!

Xj says:
see ya

Agent M says:
Sorry. I don't think that would work.
Well I think I'll take a break now. Talk to you later!

then it does not reply me anymore... =.=

2009-04-24T14:55:00.004+08:00

“为什么你要笑？可不可以不要笑？”

“为什么在这种情况下我还笑得出来？”

难道你要我哭给你听吗？

xxx

曾经想要尝试不再联络你、不再理你、不再关心你、不在部落格里写你、把你在msn block 掉、把会令我想起你和关于你的东西从我的视线扫除、藏在某个我半年都不会开的柜子。看看我能不能生活在没有你的世界，看看你会不会因为我开始对你不闻不问而紧张。

但是，我并没有如此。毕竟爱情不可以利用这样的方式来考验。就好像你说不可以利用铜钱和色子来显示上帝的指引一样。

而且，我光想就觉得难过和难搞。

我不找你的话，除了凡，没有人能像你这么有耐心听我说废话和能够让我敞开心房的畅谈。

有一首英文歌好像是这样的。

You don't need a stage to become my star

我不理你，不关心你的话，就好像没有看娱乐新闻的感觉。其实平时我也没有什么看……因为你就是我的明星，八卦你的东西就够了。

我不在部落格写你的话，我会减少3/4的production speed 和 quality。好像没什么好写了……还能写些什么？难道写方大同和Harry Potter 吗？

虽然平时你在线上也很少和我说话。但是如果你不在线上的话好像也没有什么瘾……

把会令我想起你和关于你的东西从我的视线扫除、藏在某个我半年都不会开的柜子？？？

天哪！我的联想力这么丰富，我连看到天花板都会想你……相信没有一个柜子能够容纳全宇宙……就算有，我还是在这个宇宙里生活……

今天的digi line 有够差，连sms你都困难……

xxx

说到方大同和Harry Potter,他们与你其实早已被lat认为是“我生命中最重要的三个男人”（当然目前为止，我没有否认:P）。

你们都一样是瘦瘦的、没有很高、还带着一副眼镜。都是属于比较安静的人。Harry Potter 因为身世的关系，所以没有这么开朗。方大同和你就会整天说一些比较让人乍到的话。

Ginny Weasley在还没进Hogwarts之前就喜欢Harry 了。但是Harry 却爱上了张秋。中间发生了什么事呢？我还没看完。看一些资料说Ginny 在还没有和Harry谈恋爱前，有和别的男生在一起……请仲颖姐姐不要告诉我。我想要自己看。总之，到最后他们结婚了，还生了三个孩子……

xxx

没什么。就写爽罢了。

2009-04-24T08:55:00.001+08:00

This guy is funny~

2009-04-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

Why I love you...

1. You have amazing eyes
2. I love your hair
3. Your voice makes me smile
4. Your smile gives me butterfiles
5. You make me laugh
6. I can always talk to you
7. You laugh at my bad jokes
8. You find time to call/ text me
9. I can stare at you for hours and not get bored of that incredibly adorable face.
10. You're the closest thing to perfect
11. You're everything I waited for

I guess the real reason why I love you is because

You're you.

Love these words... extract from a friend's blog's photo.

And i want to dedicate it to you. ^^

2009-04-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

今天是Sour Cream 的第九次聚会。今天人少得可怜。凡上班了，仲颖姐姐在忙她去matric的东西。所以只有我、ckk和lat在玩。各自完各自的，感觉没什么意思。

所以我们去了找凡在翠玉楼吃午餐。刚好遇到Ckk的父母，他们帮我们付了钱。谢谢Uncle Aunty.^^

Uncle 说：“等你们赚了钱再请回我们啦。”

后来，我们回到家，没有电。Lat 玩Ckk的电脑，我和Ckk在那边唱情歌弹琴，没有说爱。Lat 这个时候就在那边无聊到偷拍我们……

一直到有电的时候，已经是下午4.00了。我们用Ckk的电脑来sign in 四个人的acc 来和tzy chat，结果tzy没有复我们……不爽……

就这样，无聊了一整天。

xxx

我把卡给了他。希望他是真的喜欢，不是在应酬我。哈哈。

好想再看一看那个卡。可是没有帮那个卡拍到照……

2009-04-22T23:07:00.005+08:00

昨天，我、Ckk & Tzy 去学校，为了帮Ckk 做好申诉进入Matrikulasi 的手续。

过后，我和Tzy去买了一些礼物给朋友，作为饯别及生日礼物。本来我不想买给Ckk的。因为我不想这么快就用上我的饯别礼……可是当时，我看到一张很漂亮的卡片，我想，就买吧。反正这么有意思的卡片不是每次都有。

后来，我们去了KFC 吃午餐，再买了蛋糕，就回家。

到家后才发现，我两年前所写的短篇诗又上少年杂志了。

舍得

舍去时间我得到经验
舍去狂野我得到宁静
舍去悲痛我得到快乐
舍去爱人我得到知己
舍去恋情我得到友谊
舍去你我得到自己

两年前，我为了一个人写下这首诗。

两年后，它出现了……感觉就好像两年前的自己在劝说自己要找回自己……

xxx

后来，到了晚上，我们去到家燕家，为家燕庆祝生日。当时，我们一行人(hkf, sxy, tzy, lat, lyf & me)一下车，看到家燕的爸爸妈妈站在门口前，看着我们。我们全部便发出嘘声，示意他们不要惊动家燕。谁知道她的妈妈，一去就说，“家燕，你的朋友来了。” =.=

我们进了屋子，看到一个很“师奶”的背影。我问欣宜是不是家燕来的。她说不是。结果我们进了厨房，那个“师奶”手握着一条鱼，一转身，才看清楚她的真面目。那就是我们的女寿星~ （她还摸着那条鱼，好像在摸宠物一样……）

后来，等家燕换好衣服，我们便去Karl's 吃晚餐。一进到餐厅，我们的声音便充斥着整个餐厅，一直没有停下来。我们一边聊天，一边吃晚餐。全部人都叫Spaghetti,只有我叫Set dinner (lemon tea, mushroom soup, grill salmond with creamy lemon sauce)。

过后，我们回去家燕的家吃蛋糕。还关上灯吹蜡烛。我们唱了华语、英文、广东和马来文的生日歌。

吃完蛋糕后，我就送Tzy回家。然后我就踏上归途。

xxx

晚上，我爸妈突然郑重其事的说：“何晓君，过来。我要和你谈谈你的前途……”

因为我被入选去PISMP 的interview, May 13,在KK. 所以，他们叫我去面试咯。

其实我不是很想去。因为我本来想要拿的课程是出外国的，但是他给到我的是本地的，还叫我做Guru Serba-guna!!! 它给我的subject 是Bahasa Inggeris, Pendidikan Jasmani 和 Pengajian Sosial!!!!!

还有一个牵挂……

但是这也不是我需要担心的。毕竟有缘千里来相聚，无缘对面不相逢。

我妈妈说到时候如果有机会在interview 的时候，表象良好，或许你可以拿到去外国的学位。好过你什么都没有试就说不要。还用新电话和去kk不用坐车来引诱我……

aih...顺其自然啦。

2009-04-21T17:19:00.000+08:00

so cute~

2009-04-21T06:46:00.008+08:00

我又创下了一个记录了。从来没有为了某些人、事、物而严重影响睡眠品质将近一个星期。毕竟我是周公的超级大粉丝。

是时候停止放肆自己的思想，停止烦恼继续肆虐。找回我生活的重心，恢复我地球人的身份。

我不要再做Alien了！！！做到给人家讲“不像人又不像Alien”，都几失败几下。

其实我的脑袋的RAM绝对不输给我家所有的电脑的总RAM。因为我可以同时在做别的东西时，同时在思考别的本来应该不是问题的问题。或许因为那是所谓甜蜜的烦恼吧。但是当结果还是未知数的时候，总是容易钻牛角尖。

是时候找回我脑袋的价值了。

在短期之内，我会坚持自己的立场，做好自己的本分。在我的能力范围内努力的充实自己，让自己拥有更多被爱的资格，一直到我申诉成功。

因为我不想错过你。

细水流长的爱情一直是我所向往的。所以我第一个目标就是要培养我的耐性。

加油加油！！！

2009-04-20T07:10:00.003+08:00

Again, a sleepless night and terrible dream...

Yesterday, i dreamt about werewolfs... There is so many ppl at my house, for BBQ party. But all of them i cannot identify is who, just know that i knew them... (got a feeling that all of them are wizard and witches around my age...)

Suddenly, ppl are twisting thier hand and neck in a peculiar angle. A werewolf ghost is haunting my house. I casting a spell without using a wand (actually i think i dun own a wand...) Aquous Countuder xxxx... (a very long long long spell...) I just remember the front part, but forget the back ones. The werewolf ghost fade away. So i go upstairs, searching all over with my spell books and internet, and i found a note on my notice board. There's a spell on it. So i grab the note, run downstairs and going to tell everyone about the spell to eliminate werewolf.

When i arrive downstairs, everyone's eye changed like the shape of cat eyes. They are grinning at me. I shout out loud for the spell i get, but nothing happends. Then i finally realise that is the spells for vampire. =.=

I rush back upstairs, and i found 2 ppl wif cat eye staring at me. I push them outside and lock my door... Things starts to go in a very strange and terrible way... i think they are going to transform into werewolfs in no time... By the time,

i woke up...

I think if i can find the spell to encounter werewolf, i wrote it inside a howler and release it downstairs... this may save the day... lol...

It's only a dream...

2009-04-18T21:59:00.004+08:00

今天是我人生中祷告最多次的一天。

早上我们去了Ms Teresa 的婚礼，在St Mary Church 进行。整个过程都是很愉快的气氛。老师的脸化得很厚，有点不像她。但是新娘永远是最美丽的。

中午我们去了De palm 吃午餐。觉得他的Set Lunch 还不错。

晚上我答应了Ckk 去他的教会。下午5.00，天不作美，下了一场雨来。妈妈立刻说上天阻拦你不要去教堂……我就和她说，现在距离出发的时间还有一个多小时，到时候如果雨停了，我就会去。结果，雨停了。

所以我晚上去了教会。认识了很多新朋友。有一点奇怪的是有人会觉得我和Ckk像……我有爽到拉……整个活动感觉还蛮不错。只是不知道为什么在唱圣歌的时候还是会流泪。如果这真的是圣灵触碰我的反应，那么可以换别的吗？流眼泪真的很难受……

回到家后，在厕所梳洗时，听到我爸爸拿着电话单，在那边问：“5902 是谁的？打了三十多块钱……”

我又说慌了……说是凡的……然后屈指一算，总共 Rm34.6……加上我用自己手机打了将近RM30，加起来总共RM60++ …… O.O

我妈妈在我算的时候，在我耳边念：“下次谁有家里电话的就打家里电话啦。整天打手机，又不是说见不得光的事情……”=.= （证明了她是我妈妈……）

其实我所用的电话费，应该足够买一个splitter了……我可以送一个给你的……只是怕你不要罢了……

Please……

2009-04-18T08:12:00.002+08:00

那种快要窒息的感觉又卷土重来了……

我真的不希望我们会分开……虽然这种事情不由得我们去决定……

昨晚我妈妈和我坐在电脑前打Surat rayuan. 我们写信写到好像Apply Belia Cemerlang 似的……

以下连接是马华公会发起的申诉表格，谁想要争取的，就做吧。(中了Matrikulasi = 保证可以读本地大学)

http://youth.mca.org.my/Chinese/Form%20Library/Borang%20Rayuan%20Matrikulasi2009.pdf

Psalms 32:8

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye.

So, as long as i do what i should be done, i shall not worry...

2009-04-17T18:18:00.002+08:00

今天，我们Sour Cream 卷土重来~

这是我们第九次的聚会。今天我们的活动是玩电脑和打麻将。详情请参考Tzy 的blog.

今天其实没有什么特别。凡上班了，所以我们只有在她放饭的时间找她吃饭。

Matrikulasi 我，Ckk和Lat都没有中……有一种莫名的兴奋……或许因为不需要分开吧……

但是我妈妈一回到家就说一定要写信去申诉……

xxx

雨下好大……

喜欢和你肩并肩坐着聊天的感觉。

^^

2009-04-16T13:51:00.004+08:00

用了半天才upload 上来……辛苦到……就为了Ckk明年的一封红包……（没有啦。我自己也爽ok？）

Enjoy...^^

2009-04-16T10:57:00.002+08:00

Yesterday my dad told me a joke.

Malaysia Boleh

A team of archeologist from country A dug 1000 meter underground, and they found a copper wire. They therefore claim that thier ancestor had been using telephone around 1000 years before for communication.

Archeologist from country B also carried out investigation at 2000 meter underground, and they found optic fibre. They therefore claim that thier ancestor had been using optic fibre to access internet since 2000 years ago.

Malaysian archeologist team was digging down the ground for around 5000 meter low, and they found nothing. They therefore claim that thier ancestor

had been using wireless since 5000 years ago...

MALAYSIA BOLEH~

2009-04-15T08:25:00.002+08:00

MAKLUMAT TERKINI PERMOHONAN PROGRAM MATRIKULASI

MAKLUMAT KEPADA PEMOHON PROGRAM MATRIKULASI BAGI LEPASAN SPM

Keputusan boleh disemak mulai 17 April 2009 melalui tiga cara :

1) Layari laman sesawang - http://www.moe.gov.my/

2) Sistem Pesanan Ringkas(SMS) - Taip MOE (Jarak-space) MAT (jarak-space) No KP(tanpa ada tanda sempang) dan hantar kepada 15888.

Contoh: MOE MAT 911001115263 dan hantar ke 15888

3) Telefon ke nombor 0388844100

Butiran lanjut baca seterusnya.

Perancangan Pengambilan Pelajar

Program Matrikulasi Sesi 2009/2010

Keputusan SPM - 12 Mac 2009
Mesyuarat Prapendaftaran - 17/04/2009
Pengumuman Calon Jaya Program Satu Tahun - 17/04/2009
Rayuan - 17 - 30/04/2009
Pendaftaran Program Satu Tahun - 11/5/2009
Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar Baru - 11 - 17/05/2009

POSTPONE POSTPONE... EVERY TIME ALSO LIKE THAT... EVERY THING ALSO LIKE THAT... I HATE WAITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-14T08:56:00.002+08:00

为什么会有人不知道自己到底爱不爱一个人？

为什么如果不能告诉对方你爱她，你不告诉她你不爱她？

为什么要一直不知道？

还是你其实已经心里有数，但是因为某些原因所以不想要这么快就结束这段暧昧？

可能你不在乎。要不然你不会过得那么自在……晚上没有发过一场恶梦……

我终于明白Tzy detoxing 的痛苦。其实我不是在detox，而是发毒瘾……

呼吸困难、手脚冰冷、四肢颤抖、胸闷、想呕吐、流眼泪、头晕目眩、嗜睡、产生幻影、发恶梦……

之前短暂拥有的踏实、满足、愉快、自信……消失了。

走的每一步，感觉好像随时会倒下。

眼泪一直在我眼睛打滚，分量却不足以流下。是不是已经流干了？

我在别人面前伪装快乐。虽然有人知道我痛苦，可是我不愿意分享。

因为不管我和多少人诉说，和多少人倾谈，你一天重复那一句“不知道”，我一天不能自由。

这一个问题只有两个选择，爱或不爱。选哪一个都是一百分。但是你却写“不知道”……

2009-04-13T19:40:00.002+08:00

走在半空中
要人命的风
就快要把我吹落
你在那一头
说你不爱我
我挂在风里颤抖

走钢索的人
不害怕牺牲
只求你一句爱我
往前是解脱
后退是自由
我应不应该回头

风吹痛我双眼
我看不清楚
我平衡不了
躲在我心里的苦
我要给你幸福
你蛮不在乎
你爱不爱我
会决定我下一步

往前是冷漠
后退是寂寞
干脆我坠落
回忆在左手
未来在右手
谁又会同情我

2009-04-13T11:04:00.008+08:00

又是一次浩大的工程，把部落格的背景翻新了。感觉如何呢？第一次自己编辑blogskin，感觉很有成就感。hahaha~

昨天算不算是我们Sour Cream的聚会呢？我们去了Indah Anglican Church （CKK的教会）参与了他们的复活节活动。第一次跟worship，感觉好像平时在听演讲，没有什么特别。之前Ckk和Tzy一直重复的提醒我worship很闷，我是不觉得闷。可能因为这次的牧师搞笑的关系。

Ckk 在这次的活动中有跳舞，我把它录下来了。但是他说不要把它post上来，没关系。我post snap shoot咯。^^

觉不觉得这个动作很熟悉？因为那是从《牛仔很忙》Copy 出来的……

Ending Pose…… Ckk 突然间从中间弹出来……

十点过后，我们离开教堂。Ckk 有事所以没有和我们去玩。本来想回家看电视的凡被我们硬硬带走。我们去了Giant 看Karnival Buatan Malaysia （都是一些敢买不敢用的东西，不明白为什么妈妈这么坚持要我带朋友去看=.=）

在那边，我们遇到Cky。我们就在Pizza Hut 叙旧。一直聊陈年往事，只可惜那些记忆对我来说已经十分零碎。但是他们却好像历历在目。在那边一边吃一边说还不够，结果Sour Cream + Cky - Ckk 来到我家，继续聊。

突然凡的Admire 找上门来，我们便冒充凡来和他聊天。详情请参阅Tzy 的部落格。

到了晚上，我去了贵都吃晚餐。中山公会的聚餐。看到桌上大鱼大肉，突然有想转吃锅边素的念头。可能是在京城工作久了，不太想再吃肉，尤其是猪肉……

2009-04-11T22:10:00.002+08:00

今天在工作的时候我遇回我一个小学老师——叶春福老师。

他是其中一个我不喜欢的老师。因为他是第一个"FAIL"我考卷的老师。我人生第一张Fail的考卷是马来文作文。当时我才拿48分。到现在我还记得。我还记得许多同学不喜欢他，因为他偏心，而且曾经对学生动粗。

本来我还想说在他的食物里吐口水的……可是这并不是一个好的做法。毕竟这是很下等的动作。

我端饮料给他的时候，我和他聊了几句。以平常心来聊。依然离不开成绩和升学。当他听到我拿11A 的时候，他那种开心的神情真的还让我感到骄傲。哈哈。

我也没有必要把这些东西怀恨在心。毕竟已经是很多年前的事情。我想他一定不记得了。

其实放下仇恨的感觉很好。

2009-04-10T22:00:00.003+08:00

我觉得我就快疯掉了……

今天下午，我在我奶妈家，拿着我的手机。

等等等……终于，我的爱人打电话给我。

我问他：“你现在的空讲话啦？”

他说：“是啊，你要和我说什么？”

然后我告诉他等一下。我盖了他的电话。然后我再打过去。

他问：“为什么你要盖我的电话？”

我说：“其实我一直都很想打电话找你，只是怕你不得空理我……”

很白痴拉~

幸好这只是一个梦。

晚上我去上班了，有点东西忙，才能暂时减轻思念的重量……

2009-04-10T06:59:00.002+08:00

等不到你的回答
我的心开始慢慢落下
我知道我自己太过急躁却无可解药
算了吧只怕你不想理我……

xxx

今天一大早，有这么一段旋律和歌词在我脑袋里。反正好久好久没写歌了，就把它纪录下来。到最后写了三句就不知怎么接下去了，所以算了吧……

xxx

昨天我发了一个梦……

梦到我向心仪的男生告白后，他说我“Sai气”……

“你这么粗鲁，有谁要你？收皮啦……你去练斯文一两年后才讲啦……”

后来，我用铅笔杀死了一只老鼠，因为它偷听我说话……又糗又生气……（不是我的hamster)

xxx

请原谅我的纠缠。强烈的想念日渐吞噬我。感觉你很忙，很累。可是还是会奢侈的想听听你的声音。真的有东西和你说。想要向你报告我的努力。但是……

你愿意听吗？

对不起……

2009-04-08T17:59:00.001+08:00

一个人在家很nyiak...有谁可以陪陪我？

好想快点去读书……

2009-04-07T11:41:00.006+08:00

什么东西会让人感觉浪漫？

清晨？白天？夕阳？夜晚？
晴天？雨天？太阳雨？雷雨交加？
巧克力？蛋糕？雪糕？Tiramisu?
玫瑰？百合？紫罗兰？
咖啡？牛奶？茶？
Cha Cha?华尔兹？
脚踏车？巴士？车子？走路？
餐厅？游乐园？
早餐？午餐？晚餐？宵夜？
通电话？写信？SMS?

在大清晨的时候，刚刚起身。打开窗口，看到你在我家楼下，“要不要一起去吃早餐？”

白天里在公园里和你一起吃面包。

夕阳里你用脚踏车载我，在海边的公路上，我依偎在你背后……

夜晚，一手握着你买给我的小吃，一手握着你，穿过人来人往的夜市。

晴天的时候和你一起在阳台晒衣服。

雨天的时候和你在雨中戏水。

下着太阳雨的时候，和你在窗口边寻找彩虹的踪影。

雷雨交加的时候，在家里和你喝着一碗浓浓的汤。

送给你黑巧克力，因为它先苦后甜，而且有益健康。

蛋糕你一口我一口。

雪糕里偷偷藏着一个小戒指。

你亲手做的Tiramisu，那个味道还在我的脑海里……

我会把你送给我的花拿来做花茶。一来看不到它凋谢的样子，二来我们两个可以一起边喝茶边聊天。

"Coffe? Tea? or Milk?" 我会回答:"You~"

踩着平稳的舞步，在舞厅里管铉乐队的伴奏之下翩翩起舞……

玩累了，搭巴士回家不小心在车上睡着了。你的头靠在我的肩上，流了一点口水……（衣服当然照洗……毕竟不合卫生）

到了路口，就算不顺路，你也会陪我走到门口。结果我又把你送到你家门，你又陪我走回家。来来回回，虽然有点白痴……

在餐厅里，安静得可你听到你的呼吸。不敢正面看你多几眼，只怕被你的魅力给电晕了。

游乐园里和你在过山车一起喊，转到我晕头转向，结果一下车就吐在你身上……

我们一起在厨房准备食物，一起吃，然后一起洗碗。

得空的时候，提起笔，写封情书，再拨你的电话，念给你听。电话不够钱，就只好SMS咯。

结论：如果缺少你，这一切都不叫浪漫……

2009-04-06T09:46:00.004+08:00

如果几天没斗嘴全身感觉都不太对
早就习惯你出招我奉陪
我们总是爱作对什么时候才能变一对
好想跟你每一天回家都顺路

下次看影碟换我选
动作片难道你看不累
找部感动的流眼泪让你靠肩
给我机会表现温柔体贴

为什么我一个字都还没说
明明是该表态时侯
1234567 爱上你了对不起
慢几拍麻烦你稍候
爱我别放过我
我一定会为你不保留我想我没时间寂寞

如果几天没斗嘴全身感觉都不太对
早就习惯你出招我奉陪
我们总是爱作对什么时候才能变一对
好想跟你每一天天天都幸福

想要天天搅和想闯浪漫的祸
好不容易胆子够偏偏词穷
全世界都在沉默直到你说答应我
要跟你在一起每分每秒快乐的折磨
你等著我来 say i love you
我确实很在乎一定让你非常感动

xxx

不晓得你有没有这种想法。哈哈~

xxx

（方大同真得很♥♥♥♥♥ 迷人~）

2009-04-05T18:20:00.008+08:00

我们的小hamster 会爬了。妈妈就叫我把他抓出来拍照。

小东西刚刚长了一点毛，眼睛都还没开，盲盅盅的……

妈妈一直拿着相机拍照，我觉得我快要抓不住了，说要放回去窝里。妈妈却说“转过来，拍多几张……”

结果真的不小心掉下来了。

小老鼠张开嘴巴在地上发出“吱吱”声。看得我好心痛，眼泪都流了。

赶快把它抓回进窝里……过了不久后又爬来爬去。还好没事。

xxx

今天看了High School Musical 3. 剧中人即将毕业，为了自己的前途作选择。要篮球？舞台？还是爱人？

虽然我和他们的选项不一样，但是徘徊在交叉路口的我，很有感触。

但是现在选择权不在我手上。我能做的只是努力的祈祷。相信上天会安排最好的路给我。

2009-04-04T20:04:00.006+08:00

今天是一个很adventurous的一天。

清明时节雨纷纷……早上我们去了普济寺拜拜。我妈妈和婆婆留下来念经，我、爸爸和勇勇去了香烛店买了一些拜拜的东西去我爸爸的公司拜拜。最近公司发生了很多事情，爸爸做一些事情来化解。

到了公司，我们开始烧香烛和冥钱纸。突然凉风阵阵，火烧不起来。烧着烧着，天空开始下起倾盆大雨来。我们快快把剩下的冥钱点燃，然后拿着一把香，绕场一周，把香插在货仓周围。

一上车，离开了公司后，雨居然停了……

顺着highway, 我们前往下一个目的地——PC Fair。我们在那边买了一set speaker 和耳机。

到了午餐时间，我们又回了普济寺吃斋菜。饭菜好香。

下午3.30，勇勇第一次的小题琴课正式开始。我在旁边旁听，感觉很有趣。但是学小提琴并不容易，我看我还是听从ckk的劝告，专心在我的钢琴上吧。最多喜欢的时候借来玩玩lor。

今天是4月4日，傍晚4点整，我们去扫墓（好……玄……的时间……）。今年少了静儿雪儿……婆婆每次一定会带鸭蛋和其他零食来给我们吃。今年也不例外，但是今年我们竟然吃到咸鸭蛋。还好不是很咸。可能是婆婆买的时候，卖的人不小心给错了五颗（其他的是淡鸭蛋）。

扫完幕后，懒惰回家煮饭，我们便到马来餐厅吃饭（妈妈的提议……）。去到那里，有一个马来大婶和妈妈很聊得来，聊着聊着，竟然拿凳子在我们旁边坐下来了。但是都还好。她是Elopura Bestari 的老师，原来和妈妈是同道中人——同样是从UPM 毕业的。

聊了很多东西。少不了成绩，考试和升学。她还教我怎么祈祷。要希望那个评选官在挑选入学者名单时，能够spot 到我们的名字。这是一个不错的方法，我等下就会照着做。^^

勇勇练琴的模样。他说要在我的房间练琴，要报仇……报我每次弹琴吵到他……

今天是一个又有趣，又吃得饱，又满足的一天。

2009-04-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

这是前几天的事情……

早上一大早起身，我看着那几只小小的老鼠，笑了。因为他们真的很可爱。喂Ah Girl 吃东西的时候，她的嘴巴轻轻靠近我的手指，吞下了那颗在我手里的绿豆。她伸出手来，抓着我的手指……

！！！！！！！！！！！！！

她抓着我的食指咬着不放，我又不敢大力甩开她。她才刚刚生baby,怎么忍心这样对她？

她咬了两三口，我把我的手抽掉。指甲花了，鲜血直流……

止了血后，看着tissue 沾满自己的血迹，感觉很不知道怎样……

后来，我去练琴。弹着The Blue Danube，手指头传来阵阵疼痛。后来才发现白键上开着一朵一朵鲜红色的小花……擦了好久才擦得走。

到今天，我的右手食指依然疼痛……

2009-04-03T20:30:00.004+08:00

I want to go to the beach
Brighten up the beach with candles arrange in love shape
With the wind blowing smoothly
And silently blow off all the candles
Moon shines brightly at the sky
Stars shine around her
Lighten up the seashore
You sitting beside me
Humming some sweet melodies
Feeling warmth of your arms around me
Looking beyond the horizon
Until the sun rises...

2009-04-03T15:18:00.003+08:00

今天我和Tzy和Lat回学校。见到许多好久不见的朋友，Certify 了文件，还有看Easter Day表演。

今天Ms Chang Vun Ying 生日，没有带到礼物。只是Greet 了她罢了。和她聊关于以后升学的东西。其实做老师真的不错……

后来我们去了PC Fair, 没什么特别。

然后我们一行八个人——我，Lat, tzy, day, belly, vin, cvk, hkf 去吃午餐。那个地方环境不错，但是对于我来说它的食物分量有点少。吃不饱……最近有一种感慨，想要找一家吃得饱又吃得好的地方难道有这么难吗？好像找一天和你去Karl's吃，最多我请你。那边的意大利面真的很不错……（想到我都肚子饿了……）

回到家，和Lat, Tzy & Hkf玩Wahjog. 今天破了纪录，从来没有试过一次过赢这么多场。Lat 和 Tzy 不停的咒我情场失意……（cheh~ 才没有这么容易……lalala……）

好怀念Sour Cream 的日子……

2009-04-02T16:38:00.002+08:00

Wao... line 差到……我一直Sign in 不到 msn…… 好想念仲颖姐姐。但是如果我无聊到打电话和她说我想念她，我想下次见面她会一巴盖下来……lol……

=.=

2009-04-02T15:16:00.002+08:00

Harap Maaf, Nama anda tidak tersenarai dalam temu duga ini. Sila semak panggilan temuduga untuk Program Ijazah Sarjana Muda Perguruan (PISMP) pada 15 April 2009.

Ok lor... 被拒绝了。我和凡一起被拒绝。为什么呢？上次我们申请Tenaga Nasional 的，我、凡和Lat一起被拒绝。当我查看那些入围者名单，发现所有人都是西马人。感觉有点气。如果你们跟地方来选，那么你就早早说好，我们东马人就不需要在那边白忙一场。

这次由于看不到入围者名单，所以我也没有头绪他到底是要什么条件……如果说只给土著申请，那么凡应该很有机会中。但是情况并不是如此……

我帮了凡做了Rayuan,毕竟他和我说她很希望拿到这个学位。而我呢？现在的我比较想读Matrikulasi 或 Form 6…… 还有机会给我选我想要选的课系。毕竟我还没有正式定下心来……

2009-04-02T08:44:00.002+08:00

其实一切并没有想象中那么糟糕。好的开始就是成功的一半。天下无难事，只怕有心人。坚持努力的话有一天将可以成功！！Wakakaka……

只要你不要否定我的努力。

2009-04-01T19:07:00.007+08:00

今天是一年一度的愚人节。

今天是张国荣的死忌，但是跟我没什么关系。

以前是怎么过这一天的呢？唯一有印象的是我对着Ckk笑，然后他就会问我：“做什么？是不是我脸上有东西？”然后东摸摸西摸摸。其实什么都没有。我开的就是这么简单的玩笑。虽然有点无聊，可是好在它不痛不痒。

我从来没有在这一天疯狂过。毕竟我没有跟那些很疯狂的人很熟。不太喜欢愚人节。以别人对你的信任开玩笑，并不好玩。更可怕的是如果闹过火了就不好了。

今天本来不想online的。传说Confliker Virus 会在今天爆发。可是不想看电视，对着一大堆书也有点吃不消。后来，我一开电脑的时候，Avast update 了，还跳出来说:"Avast is ready for April...” 有一点好笑……但是也因此而安心多了。

依然是没有胃口的一天。早上吃了两块Chipsmore 后，到了11点多，肚子很俄，但是不想吃东西……为了不要患上胃病，勉强自己找了一包maggie ayam来吃。还以为今天自己在家一整天，会平安无事。哪里知道我被一包maggie fool 了……里面竟然没有调味包。随便找了鸭肉口味的调味包，调下去，有一点辣辣的。虽然不是很辣，但是还是吃不下。吃了两口，把整碗面倒掉了……

就这样，一直到晚上才吃饭……

开始有点厌食症的倾向，已经有好几餐没有吃到饱了……以前并没有这种情况发生……

2009-04-01T07:19:00.004+08:00

昨天是我们Sour Cream 第七次聚会，也可能是短期内最后一次。

大家都很迟才来到。Lat 和 Lyf 都在忙申请Scholarship 的问题。

昨天我们做了火锅，看着桌上一盘盘的菜色，感觉很有成就感。毕竟这不是一朝一夕能够弄得出来的。哈哈哈哈……凡食物中毒，本来说不要吃这么多的。可是还是改不了“大食饭”本色。

我和Tzy 和Ckk 打了萝卜汁，里面放了萝卜、生奶、水和糖。我们在做萝卜汁的时候一直在讨论（放多少水……怎样切……什么味道……好像是白开水加生奶的味道……）后来Lat 要喝的时候，我们说里面加了洋葱、芫西……结果，他说：“除了萝卜、牛奶和糖的味道，我觉得有第三者的味道……可能是我们的口水吧……

说到分雪糕，我分给Ckk & Lat 两块的。Tzy说她很忙因为当时她吃着老虎虾。所以我后来才分给她。我只给了她一块，怕她太饱吃不完。我自己也只吃了一块。结果我的贴心，却换来他们说我偏心……伤心啊……Lat，你要还我清白！！！

后来，经过我三番四次的请求，我们Sour Cream终于拍到一张团体照。但是照片在Lyf那里，下次再post上来吧。

2009-03-31T12:05:00.003+08:00

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~

我抓到那只熊了。

他完成了那个tag,然后很不愿意的拿着那张纸拍了一张照。

结果我很炸到的是——他tag完他全家人……=.=

2009-03-30T15:47:00.002+08:00

今天和凡去shopping 来……为了买凡去JPA Interview 和上班的衣服。

我挑了一件白色OL style 连身裙给她，一穿下去竟然有惊艳的感觉……凡也突然蹦出一句说：“我也觉得我自己很美……”

总共花了RM113, 买了她的衣服、鞋子和短丝袜。

后来我们接了我弟弟放学后，想去The boss 吃饭。遇到Ckk, 有一点吓到……

虽然天气很热，可是Carrot juice 里的冰和冷气冷到我没什么胃口。

祝凡Interview 成功，做工顺利。

2009-03-30T10:01:00.002+08:00

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！

很恐怖！！！！

今天我上了一个网站 - www.makemebabies.com

你可以upload相片上去，然后它帮你mix and match 你和你所选的partner的相片（明星也可以），变出一个baby的样子。

我超级后悔做了这件事……它帮我变出来的baby竟然是卷毛的……丑到死。而且样子像鬼佬……

我觉得它的setting不是给亚洲人的，我看就算了吧……

真的很丑……但是这并不能减退我想生孩子的欲望。毕竟我相信我的孩子会比这个美很多。哈哈。

想看吗？放心，我不会post上去。因为真的很丑……

2009-03-29T16:46:00.002+08:00

忙完仓鼠的事情后，我做了一件无聊事。

我用左手写了这一大堆的东西。我原本的字体已经够“好”看了，还叫我用左手写……=.=

Rules to tag : all must be written by left hand (just in case you are left handed, use your right then) and take a picture of yourself while doing this tag.

1. Write your name, surname
2. Your favourite sentence / statement
3. Your favourite word
4. Favourite numbers and alphabets
5. Draw a picture of yourself
6. Draw something you like.
7. "I love you, _____"
8. A word stated with S
9. A song title
10. 10 people you tag

看得到吗？

看不到就算了吧。

2009-03-29T14:39:00.004+08:00

今天是一个惊喜的一天。

我早上和爸妈和婆婆去喝茶，然后买打边炉的材料。一回到家，发现鱼缸里血迹斑斑，我的仓鼠生宝宝了！

难怪这几天他们的行为那么不妥……真感到有点惭愧。我竟然那么小气（真的要改了）……对不起……

虽然看着仓鼠生孩子的过程并不是很好受（很多血，而且她每生一个，就会有一个胎盘，她把它吃了……而且她还把她的第一胎应该是有残缺的宝宝给吃了……）。但是还是觉得很开心。

Ah girl 生baby

第三个baby 出世了

小小仓鼠宝宝

Ah boy 看起来好紧张……一直跑来跑去……

2009-03-28T19:03:00.003+08:00

今天不太美好……

给Photoshop 搞到我头很晕，想吐……

我花了整个下午，弄了这幅图。（Original image source from internet, not my own paining... =.=)

原本是这样的。

本来想用这幅图来做我的新blogskin，可是由于不熟悉html code 的用法，花了整个傍晚都弄不出来……

迟些先吧。很累……

2009-03-27T17:47:00.007+08:00

今天又是一个美好的一天。

Sour Cream 的Chat room 里又蹦出了一个无聊的话题：Ckk 送给我的Bear bear 是男、女还是没有性别？

Lat 和 Tzy 说bear bear 是男的。因为bear bear 没有眼睫毛，而且有青色的ribbon.

后来，我 Sms Lyf，她说：It must be a fei question between u n tzy.. Ur bear of course is male lar. Coz it equal 2 ckk mah.

我叫她不要想ckk，只是凭外表。

Lyf : Erm.. Bondan is more suitable.. Coz its appearance like girl oso...

后来，lyf 做了结论说是女的，因为她的ribbon...=.=

Ckk 就说是男的，因为看起来像。（他永远都只想的那么简单……还是我们想太多了？）

我说bear bear 是没有性别的。为了Keep it simple...

TsUn: coz u dun wan slp wif a boy every nite, so u jz think it as no sex.

Xj: lol 就算 the bear is boy, the bear also cannot gao me de lar =.=

TsUn: =.=

后来，晚上的时候我问我的妈妈，她说这个Bear bear 是男的。“你看，他的毛乱乱的，就像我们的ah boy. Ah girl 的毛永远都滑滑的，ah boy 的毛像刺猬一样……

就像男孩要把头发弄到乱乱才觉得好看，有型。就像这样 -

哈~

希望ckk不会骂我……

会不会觉得这张相片有什么不一样呢？只有他自己本人知道吧。

我第一次使用photoshop,用ckk 放在Facebook的相片来开刀。有一个本来在他的相片里我早就劝他去找医生镭射掉的东西，费了我半个小时才把它除去（新手，所以慢了些……）。可能去镭射都没有这么久。

欢迎大家Spot the difference. 赢了没有奖拿。^^ Tzy 不可以参加，因为你已经知道答案了，我告诉你了。等下次才38啦。

2009-03-27T10:37:00.004+08:00

这是我在叶福霖的blog 看到的。这才知道，原来客家歌可以这样唱。

有够废材，但是听下去，有一种苦中作乐的感觉。是我自己对号入座吗？hmm...

2009-03-26T09:01:00.002+08:00

我承认我并不是很有爱心的人。

我开始越来越不喜欢我的hamster. 不知道为什么，现在他们一看到一样物体（不管是食物、手、筷子……）他们就会攻击。尤其是他们已经长大了，牙齿利得很，才两下就流血了。就连我的指甲也要破……

真的不明白为什么……我看除了鱼和乌龟之外，我以后应该不会养其他的动物了吧。因为这两个都不会咬人……乌龟可能会，但是他的动作慢，应该来得及闪吧。

以前我有试过养乌龟的。后来有一次我清理的时候，不小心把水和乌龟一起到进马桶，冲走了……不小的那只乌龟现在还活着吗？

只希望我的hamster没有怀孕……那么他们以后死了，就没有负担了……

真的要很有爱心才可以养宠物……

2009-03-24T18:47:00.003+08:00

今天是Sour Cream 第六次聚会。本来今天的节目是打边炉。但是因为我不够信心煮一顿好吃的，所以临时取消了。后来他们说他们很“青菜”(Chin Chai) ，就决定下个星期二才弄。

今天一如往常，大家来了后打电脑，搓麻将。其中，凡和Danny 的绯闻成为我们的娱乐新闻焦点。说着说着，说到Ckk的前爱人，我顿时觉得心虚……因为在之前我有和Tzy & Lat 说过。还以为我是第一个穿他帮的人（毕竟以前这个课题从未和别人提过，也没有听别人传过）……

哈……我也太高估自己了吧。原来其实每个人都知道，只有我自己不知道每个人都知道……（还是我不想知道？）LOL……

今天我并没有尽到厨娘的本分……并没有煮足够的食物给他们吃……个个宅男宅女也不愿意出外面吃，怎么办？算了吧。相信龟仔的快熟面将会在接下来的聚会里扮演重要的角色。

ｘｘｘ

有一句话，一直在考验我的耐性。我目前为止还没有违背这个原则，但是我快要不耐烦了。

“当一个人真的想告诉你一件事，他就会告诉你。当一个人不想告诉你，那就最好不要问……”

有时候我想要早点离开这个地方，当我们以后都不见的时候，我可以在最后的时间里问清楚你。因为这样不管你给我怎样的答案，我还是需要离开。就算我伤心，也不会影响你。

是不是很悲哀leh??

因为我不指望你给我一个会让我快乐的答案。

因为如果答案会令我快乐，你应该在很早以前就告诉我。

2009-03-23T08:07:00.005+08:00

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高脚杯里的酒喝不醉……

2009-03-22T14:05:00.005+08:00

今天，我婆婆叫我怎么弄鱼腐和鱼滑。

我们去了菜市场买了两盒鱼肉回来，婆婆加了一些太白粉和调味，搓鱼丸。我用手搓着那冰冷的鱼肉，才发现原来做鱼丸不容易。手指冻到僵硬了。当然我还是咬紧牙关，打好鱼丸。

知道鱼腐是怎样弄得吗？相信没有多少个看我的部落格的人知道。

首先，把鸡蛋和鱼丸肉混合。（一碗鱼蛋要四颗鸡蛋。）
然后，再以同一个方向把鸡蛋和鱼丸搅拌均匀。（用打蛋器也行。）
一直到打到变成糊状后（我花了差不多半个小时来打），准备热油，再用汤匙挖了一小团一小团，放进慢火中的油。直到整个锅铺满后，再开大火，把两面炸成金黄色，就可以捞起来了。

鱼腐在炸的时候会膨胀到变大大个，很可爱。但是一起锅，就会缩水成平时我们看到的样子。

至于鱼滑，比鱼腐更难。

首先，手要沾一点水，所以鱼丸肉不会粘手。然后，抓一小撮鱼丸肉在手里，把它弄成扁平状。锅子要先烧热，放少许油。然后，把鱼蛋放进锅子，火转至最小，再用锅铲在鱼蛋还没熟之前切成扁条状。之后，再开中火把鱼滑炒熟。

这才知道，原来我们一口就吃完的鱼丸、鱼滑和鱼腐得来不易……

就这样，我们打边炉材料完成了一些。^^

同一时间，我也弄了盐局鸡。我只是用盐和胡椒来调味，用纸包住，再放进已经炒热了的盐堆里。鸡肉有烤的味道，但是却是白斩鸡的口感。十分不错。唯独咸了一些。下次可以试下加些烧酒和姜，应该会更好吃。

有机会的话我想做给你吃……

2009-03-21T11:39:00.002+08:00

今天我在Facebook 玩了很多废东西。

其中一个When i will die - 9th december , 2028

我还有19年？？不要傻啦……现在科技这么发达，没有那么容易死的。那个时候我四十岁都不到，如果我在29岁才结婚，我的孩子还没中学毕业，那我不是不能抱孙子？>.<

（想太远了……）

不会那么容易死的啦。我要好好活下去，珍惜每一天，珍惜身边的人事物，珍惜你。

2009-03-21T09:14:00.003+08:00

DECEMBER Birthdays:

Loyal and generous. (lol...)

Sexy. (Woots~)

Patriotic. (Sometimes)

Active in games and interactions. (True)

Impatient and hasty. (Always)

Ambitious. (Yeah~)

Influential in organizations. (Think so?)

Fun to be with. (Glad to hear that)

Loves to socialize. (Hate stay alone)

Loves praises. (Jz like tzy said, i very oi...)

Loves attention. (Oi oi oi...)

Loves to be loved. (Really oi...)

Honest and trustworthy. (Sometimes i lie also...)

Not pretending. (Maybe?)

Short tempered. (So please don't screaming in my car)

Changing personality. (always change ambition)

Not egotistic. (o.O)

Take high pride in oneself. (hmm...)

Hates restrictions. (Likes freedom)

Loves to joke. (often make jokes by Sour Cream...)

Good sense of humor. (and i will just laugh with them...)

Logical. (My logic is special de... not everyone can get it...)

2009-03-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

真得不妄我对他加倍疼惜。

Ckk今天帮我买了全套Harry Potter 的书。从KL扛回来，并不容易。

要怎样报答呢？

xxx

[c=1]TuRtLe [/c=0] says:
want kiss??
lol
. says:
dun wan
thanks
[c=1]TuRtLe [/c=0] says:
lol

xxx

当然我不会学她。

要动脑筋想想……

2009-03-19T15:45:00.001+08:00

今天，lat 大赞lyf high quality.

1.[c=32]TsUn[/c=33] says: not high meh
[c=32]TsUn[/c=33] says: over 170 woh

2.[c=32]TsUn[/c=33] says: she clever mah

3.n vy knw how 2 social

Danny, lat 要和你宣战了！！

2009-03-19T13:18:00.004+08:00

昨天，David Wong 要离开山打根了。我和凡约了他去吃早餐。（当时他告诉我他的Flight 是在早上10点……我为此特地延迟了我学钢琴的时间到下午）

后来，当我们去到，我才发现他带了一个人来。他的名字叫Danny 黄健俊。比凡高一个头，浓眉大眼，小脸，皮肤白皙。人很斯文，可是一笑起来很大声。说话的口音和这里人很不一样，翘舌音很重。驾大车，相信是有钱人。和凡一样有着非凡的成绩，想要去读Actural Science 的人。

我们在京城吃早餐，刚换了师傅，煮出来的东西完全不一样。我第一次吃面吃不到一半……

后来，下午我们去唱K，带了梁安俊去。吃饭的时候，第一次凡没有加饭哦！（是为了要照顾形象吗？）结果，安俊说：“凡，为什么不加饭？你平时不是很大吃的吗？你们两个是我见过有史以来最大吃的女孩。”（凡特意保持的形象破灭了……）

回家的时候，Danny 有和凡拿电话哦！！！（先声明，他并没有和我拿。）他会不会是凡的白马王子呢？

2009-03-17T21:31:00.001+08:00

这一首歌是在第 11首，为你写的歌里头，在16分钟左右才出现的Hidden tracks。

There we sat among the thousand, fools just like us, but not so in love like us. There we spoke of all our feelings, and dreams were born like that, and we hope for love like that. Now your dreams have changed and we are far apart. I dont know when or where to start, leading you from my mind. I want to stand with you again. I hope to find you here again. Then the eternal sunshine.

I'll search for the orange moon that lit up all of the ocean while I held your hand. And now watch all the waves from the stone where we gaze to the golden sun. And if I see the horizon, those the same as it did when we stood on the hill. I will make the arrangements, just wait on that corner for me. And if you drop me a line, I will sure to make these arrangements.

Lay your hand upon my shoulder, Ill sing a two or three sweet melodies for thee. Softly speak, to say what I need, why do you leave, my heart is at your feet. Well, I like to share three words again, these words with you again if you think its possible. And maybe I can pull you close and whisper in your ear again that I want you in my life forever.

I will search for the orange moon that lit up all on the ocean while I held your hands. And watch all the waves from the stone where we gaze to the golden sun. And if I see the horizon, those the same as it did when we stood on the hill. I will make the arrangements, just wait on that corner for me.

You are like the summer rain that cools me, that sooths me. You are the person that I pray for everyday. Maybe well sit on those steps once again, maybe we wont turn out have to pretend, you will be here in my imaginings, fade imaginings. I'll search for the orange moon...

歌词很有意思，依然带点emo的调调……

2009-03-17T20:54:00.002+08:00

你刚刚的那通电话真得让我有点受宠若惊。

虽然不了解为什么你会这么做，或许你只是单纯的想和我说你要上飞机出发了。

^^

好开心……

2009-03-17T17:41:00.003+08:00

今天下午，我们 Sour Cream （Ckk去KL，无法参与）去了潮州公会听了一个升学讲座。

其中，有一些资讯是值得和大家分享的。

1. JPA Scholarship 是给希望出国读书后能回来打政府工的人去。所以如果你并不想成为公共服务员（打政府工）那么你就让机会给别人吧。如果你想要被录取，那你要表现出你想要打政府工的心愿咯。

2. 进入大学时，成绩占90%，课外活动（中一到中六）占10%。

3. 在申请进入大学，选择八大学科的时候，要把自己喜欢的选择放在1、2、3。需要面试的选择也最好放在1、2、3。后面的，选择接近的东西。比如你的第一志愿是马大医科，那你在后面可以选博大医科、UKM Optomerst, UM Dentist 等等（不同校，相同或接近的科系）。

4.Diploma, Matriculation & Form 6 在进入大学时是公平竞争。并没有明文规定哪一条路有优先权。（但是以形势看来，Matriculation进入IPTA 的机会的确比其他的大。）

5. 对于那些中了Matriculation 但是想读Form 6 的人，请选择Matriculation. 原因请参考4。

6. 对于Matriculation 的素质比较差，当我向讲师提问的时候，他说：“你的目的是升学，不管通过哪一条管道，总之过了这一关才再说。一切要Management by Objective. 升学时不要把太多因素考虑进去。最重要要达到自己的目的。

还有更多更多，想知道更多的话就找我吧。

后来，我有跟他聊了一下。我告诉他，我最近很沮丧。因为我的成绩还差一点点，就可以申请到很多很好的奖学金。他说，他了解我的心情。因为他当初为什么他出了中学要花10年时间才从大学毕业，是因为他考了4次STPM都还差一点点才及格。

上天安排这样的成绩给我，并不代表我是第二等的人，而是第二类的人。当初上天给他这样的安排，就是要来救我的！（这句话有点夸张，但是听了他的一席话，真的很感到安慰和感动……）如果当初他一去就及格了，今天和我说话的已经不是他了。如果当初他拿到好成绩，他就去做别的工作了。他有很多朋友都拿到好的成绩，去当了医生、律师……可是他们都忙到没有时间陪家人，他们不快乐……当然也要看你的人生目标是什么。（我是属于Family 的人，他说中了……）

如果当时我拿到好成绩，我可能会当医生，但是绝对不是出色的医生（这句话我承认，因为其时我当医生或中医的兴趣其时还不是真的很大）。但是我未来可能会是一个很出色的老师或者是辅导员，就好像他。

所以……知道为什么我在那边哭了吗？

谢谢你，陈一明老师。

2009-03-16T22:08:00.003+08:00

我没有好好用功读书！！！

我好后悔！！！

全部东西都半天吊！！！

我心情很不好！！！

我哭了！！常常哭！！

哭到我很饿……

我想吃人！